ABC world news broadcast not all breast cancer patients require all chemo treatments prescribed!

It deeply pains me when I read other people portraying their experiences with cancer to be very negative, lacking christian mention and written to frighten people and mislead. They are commanding negative attention.

One reason I blog is to portray facts, percentages, guide others on their journeys and to do my best to cancel out the non factual, negative posts and other blogs that frighten people, and to assist people seeking knowledge or positive story's and out comes. This is Gods intent and his will for all of us to help others.

I want to quote an amazing woman that lost both her son and brother to cancer:
"When my son died, I made a promise that I would share the love of Christ through my pain. God has blessed me with wonderful ways to do just that.

It isn't always easy, the journey He gives us, but knowing you have a Heavenly Father that loves us, instills much strength." 

ABC world news just aired a segment on encouraging breast cancer patients to talk with their doctors on being treated as individuals and some not requiring all chemo treatments prescribed. ABC went on to say some patients are given a ten dose regimen and only required five treatments. In light of this broadcast I feel its time to give the details of my only receiving 31% of my chemo regimen and achieving a complete pathological response (no cancer) to other cancer patients. My hopes are that if they see shrinkage and the physicians are measuring tumors that are going away or cant be detected any longer that they to will be advocates for their own health. In patients that have an excellent response to chemo they need to question why they are enduring more.
I had to request an ultrasound to prove I have undetectable cancer. As they could no longer feel and palpitate my tumor, my physician did not mention or order an ultrasound. It is up to you as a patient to ask for one, as I did.

The most difficult decision I have ever made was to end chemo after five treatments as I knew I no longer had cancer. That decision was made after all the facts in my personal battle with TNBC where calculated, weighed and medical imaging showed no cancer after two treatments and Gods blessings. The health implications where far greater as chemo served it purpose and had no more benefits only significant health ricks.
After I arrived at my decision to end chemo treatments and to schedule my bilateral mastectomy, it was my past oncologist that made it miserable and almost impossible to be steadfast in moving forward and ending chemo.
I consider myself very strong emotionally, very capable, determined, knowledgeable, strong in faith, and once I arrive at a decision I never look back!
My past oncologist was absolutely determined that I was not ending chemo and I would sit weekly for a minimal of 8 to 12 more treatments. It was not relative to him that I had no more detectable cancer, that I was headed for a double mastectomy, that I had health implications, nor my desire and decision as an individual and human being to end chemo. All that mattered was his ego, his determination to follow general protocol and have me endure unnecessary chemo treatments.
He had a complete temper tantrum, told my husband and myself I was selfish, being a bad parent as I was risking re occurrence, death, and. was cheating my 5 children. As I sat there with heart problems, severe shortness of breath, I was anemic, had inability to be a mother, and lets not forget no detectable cancer it was not important to him. His answer was he has a pill for any symptom I had. He had no concern for any neuropathy, my organs, permanent heart damage and over all health all additional chemo was causing in spite of no detectable cancer. The ultimate act of his failing as a physician came when I asked that my port be removed as I was determined to end chemo as it was the absolute best decision I have ever made. He legally was required per my request to order the port removal, however the loop hole was he would not order the blood test required to have the port removed. The surgical facility and staff requested several times for the blood tests to be ordered and he told them no, in his opinion they where not necessary. A bully tactic to keep the port in and have me sit for additional chemo regardless of the facts or my decision to no longer receive additional chemo treatments. I maneuvered around him and had the blood test ordered from my family practice and inevitability had the port removed. I was told by my past oncologist that the port could be removed at the time of my mastectomy that was scheduled  two months later. There are health risks as the port sutures and a scar if fresh having a port removed at surgery time can rupture due to the reconstruction process and stretching of the skin. Not to mention blood clots and infection from the port remaining. It was best for me to have the port removed prior as my scar was healed at the time of surgery.
If your physician is not listening to you, not ordering tests to determine your progress, respecting your decisions or assisting in the correct decisions in your treatment you absolutely need to run to a new physician.
There are many wonderful oncologist that are  fair, deeply caring, and will listen and treat you as an individual. They can remove any unnecessary chemo treatments you may not need.
It is your responsibility for your own health to be an advocate, ask questions, request ultrasounds, know that you have the right to make the decisions along side your doctors for your own health treatments, and benefits.You to can very well be the patient ABC broadcast, and like myself  that your cancer is gone after 5 treatments and its unnecessary to endure more chemo. We are all unique and some require all chemo treatments prescribed. I'm simply reiterating that if you are making great progress and having shrinking tumors then please talk with your oncologist and investigate further.
It is very frightening I was told to sit for 12 additional treatments that I would be lucky to crawl out of, as the health implications where already taking a significant toll on me and I no longer had cancer.
The reason I am sharing  the details as to how difficult it was for me to end chemo is to help others as no patient should endure what I did and ultimately you deserve respect and an excellent physician. Cancer is difficult enough as every step we achieve and all decisions arrived are well earned, and should not be more taxing.

Please stand up, stand tall, ask questions, find your voice, read test results, trust in your feelings and judgement, talk in detail and have all explained, take initiative for your own journey and treatment path on your road to recovery!

I went from TNBC stage lllc in mid July and only four months later achieving a PCR with no cancer found.
I received only 5 of the 17 chemo treatments prescribed. Had a bilateral mastectomy , and on going reconstruction. I have an excellent, superior prognosis and with TNBC we are considered cured within 3-5 years.


My prayers are with you and your families this holiday season! Please know God carries us and gives us the perseverance to endure and prevail. Breast cancer is not a death sentence. It is very survivable and you too can prevail as I  and so many others have!


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Fearless is maintaining faith, hope and strength in knowing you have the ability to endure, be triumphant, and celebrate all life has to offer~

Fearless does not consist of bracing for what could potentially come next in life. Fearless is maintaining faith, hope and strength in knowing you have the ability to endure, be triumphant, and celebrate all life has to offer~

I personally have minimal tolerance for excuses. We all have trials and tribulations we must face and over come on our journeys in life. We are all individual and cope, sustain, battle, love, and portray our inner strength differently.
Life's circumstances arrive for us all and some at no fault of our own as others may be self inflicted. It is always our choice if we want to rise above it, do our best, perceive it to be a lesson learned, and want our circumstances to improve, or at least be able say I did my best. I believe if we all correlate and help one another we can conquer all and rise above anything.

I know a remarkable young woman whom had a less than ideal childhood as both parents where addicts. This selfless, loving young lady went on to "rise above her circumstances" achieve a masters degree with a well earned and deserved full academic scholarship, No excuses~

I have a woman I am praying for and doing my best to diligently help as she is not taking physicians advice and having a bilateral mastectomy, as cancer has re occurred three times in her breast as she continues to elect for a lumpectomy. As I tell her you are a single mother and the mental aspect of being partial to your breast that are adamantly trying to take your life needs to be lost and a new perspective gained. So we pray.

I was speaking with a woman who has no health insurance and has a large lump in her breast that is continuing to grow. She is scared and is not willing to seek a diagnosis. I sat with her and explained I had a 90% chance at death if I had not received treatment and I now have an excellent prognosis and a full life ahead after I completed treatment. We discussed it may be a simple cyst and no need to worry. I gave her a list to free health clinics that can help her and also Pretty in Pink and 1 in 9 breast cancer charities that can assist her in treatment bills, and many faucets in care. I will call her and follow up to assist in getting her medical care.
I met a woman, her husband wanted her to fight the battle as her small town oncologist gave her a chemo cocktail to which her cancer would not respond, as he told her he was out of ideas. This remarkable woman quit and decided to go home and not pursue other physicians opinions and knowledge. I convinced her to go to seek other oncologist that have a different, fresh perspective and can treat her, and try other medications that can work for her. She is now getting additional treatments.
I personally know stage IV extraordinary women whom are living full lives and watching there children grow. They are currently taking medication and are doing remarkably well.
I have the privilege of meeting so many survivors, fighters and all that reach out to help so many including all the help and encouragement I  receive.
All the prayers and all the greatness of so many angels among us inspire me daily.

As I deliberate my next coarse in treatment I feel so blessed to be cancer free. I have a determination to help all I can to my best ability as many have done for me.

The holiday season is a pure joy this year as we are enjoying the kids. I find myself not weighed down with any of the "small stuff". I am taking complete advantage of the miracles and blessings I have received. My perspective is forever changed as this is another blessing.

I pray I can continue to reach others and help to the full existent of my ability~

God is good to us all~

I will update my treatment decision once I sit down with my oncologist in a few weeks. God has helped me arrive at all decisions that has led to be healthy and cancer free. I am at complete peace as I know he will continue to guide me.

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I am feeling remarkably well only two weeks after my bilateral mastectomy and health is restored~

Jeremiah 29:11. 
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Once again when you want to hear God laugh "Tell him your plans"

I am feeling remarkably well only two weeks after my bilateral mastectomy. I am acclimating to my expanders and chest muscle stretching. I have no pain and no discomfort. I am healing quickly and enjoying the holidays with the kids cancer free. My health is restored, energy and stamina has returned  to full strength with only few lifting restrictions. 


After achieving a PCR (no residual cancer) my prognosis is excellent and superior as all expect me to be considered completely cured in 3 years.

Here is where I once again have arrived at a fork in the coarse in my final treatment plan. God has always supplied my answers as I know he will do so again as I am collecting facts before making a decision.

My radiologist told us we did not need the original 33 radiation treatments as originally thought due to my PCR no cancer I required no radiation. 
I then received a call from him yesterday and was told due to my original PET scan before I started chemo he changed his mind and said he wants me to receive radiation. However he wants me to speak with my oncologist and let him be my deciding factor.

Here are the facts~ I am healed and cancer free with an excellent prognosis~
I am healthy~
Radiation can cause lymphedema (swelling that is permanent)
Radiation effects last a life time~
Radiation will scar my bottom and top lungs~
Radiation causes shortness of breath and extreme fatigue~
Radiation will make my ribs fragile~
All tho rare can cause a second cancer~
It can effect the heart~
It scars and leads to reconstruction failure~

The few studies conducted on the achievement of PCR are a complete 50/50 split~ Half oncologist and radiation physicians say have it and the other half say completely unnecessary do not.

Do I benefit or does the risk out weigh the benefit?
Do I compromise my good health and healing heart?

I will sit down with my oncologist in a few weeks and weigh the percentages and have my questions answered. I have faith and no doubt God will then guide me to the correct decision. 
If I decide to have the treatment I also have faith I will have minimal to no side effects and do very well.

I sit here remarkably healthy, cancer free, enjoying my family and the holidays full of happiness and grateful for my wonderful blessed life! 

I trust all questions will be answered.  I will turn in the direction God's will takes me and all will work out perfectly!

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving and enjoyed family.

God Bless! Please keep praying as we all know prays are answered~

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When I reflect on this year as the holidays are here and a little brighter, I praise God as I am cancer free and healthy as its a pure gift! I beat TNBC

When I reflect on this year as the holidays are here and we are celebrating, I am completely appreciative and relish in the miracles I have been bestowed.

Its nothing short of miraculous  for me to really grasp how far physically, and the health crisis I have over come is such a short time. To say its been a whirlwind is not effective in describing my experiences with TNBC.

I sit and reiterate as its beyond grasp

I was on vacation over July 4th enjoying my family and children feeling remarkably healthy to arrive home, scratch my ribs in the middle of the night only to graze a large tumor. I sat straight up, slapped my husbands arm and said "wake up and feel this". The next day I was visiting an OB/GYN whom examined me and said "this is a cyst and will be benign", however its time for your annual mammogram so we will have it ordered.

That Friday I walked in with a complete false sense of security and alone as in her opinion by feel it was benign. I endured three mammograms that day as I had a large tumor you could palpitate but dangerously did not show on any mammogram. Lesson number 1 of the next million to come.
I was then given an ultrasound and upon completion the radiologist walked in and said I am now doing a biopsy.
At this point my mind was spinning, however I still had hope and thought for certain the biopsy would show all benign and false scare. As the radiologist injected very small titanium ribbons and said " they are for the surgeon" I knew then what she could see and I did not need to wait for lab results on Monday.

When we where given the results, all we where told is its breast cancer and you need to see a surgeon. Shamefully I knew nothing about breast cancer and this new world I was entering.

When I sat down with my surgeon she said you have triple negative breast cancer and are only among 15% of all breast cancers. Its rare, its very aggressive, and surgery will come late in the treatment process as I need you to go to an oncologist and receive chemo as the first part of your long road of treatments.

I was then given a PET scan, heart mugga, MRI, breast MRI, brain scan, a surgical port placed  and countless blood test to be granted the all clear to begin chemo treatments. My treatment coarse was laid out and consisted on 4 AC very taxing chemo treatments then 12 weekly chemo treatments of different drugs.

As we all know I had a complete clinical response after only 2 treatments and upon ultrasound no cancer detected. I completed 35% of my chemo treatments and was an advocate for my own health,  Due to no cancer found, the heart and health issues initiated by chemo the bad now out weighed the good as God cured me and chemo would end. I was not going to endure the toxic effects because I was simply protocol and categorized. We are all unique as are all responses to treatment and we are in desperate need of individual treatment plans. We also need to have those plans adjusted according to treatment response.

I had a bilateral mastectomy one week ago, as it was the best health decision I've ever made. I woke up with a complete pathological response and no cancer or residual cancer found. This has now catapulted my prognosis from good to excellence. Its important to know many survive breast cancer!

The exspanders are a perplexing strange feelings I acclimate and adjust to daily as they remain approximately 1 year and I have several fluid (stretching of the muscle) over the holidays. Once that occurs I will have radiation (the easy part) 5 days a week for 6 weeks.


I will be monitored every few months for the next 3 years but in light of achieving a CPR (no cancer) I have the luxury of no worry every test result awaited.

The crippling financial medical bills, copay's and deductibles, cant and wont come close to minimizing my miracles! As God will provide and I have faith.

I do not worry as life is priceless and the holidays are brighter this year!

I sit here one week out of my major surgery requiring no pain medication, feeling energetic with minimal discomfort.

My daughters who patiently waited for dance classes while mom was sick and receiving treatment, where able to attend their 1st class this morning! As I will dance in the isle at their recital in June. As their mom is determined to celebrate every day and never forget the great achievements and miracles as how wonderful God is.

I will return to normalcy, put my house back in order and help my children chase their dreams. We will play as a family, love, laugh, never take for granted, help all we meet, thank God as the glory is his.

It is amazing to consider I was TNBC stage lllC mid July and in 4 short months am cancer free!

As God has cured me I will now help others and try my best to proceed on his path and fulfill what his will and vision is for me.

We plan of visiting Boone NC at Christmas and taking the kids tubing. Having Thanksgiving at home as my healing continues, as I find myself overly excited about putting up our tree and listening to the kids play.

I will dance at my children's weddings, and cry at their graduations. I will hold their hands and cheer at their games as life is such a rewarding blessing, as I have been given more than I could ever ask. A pure gift!

Patience is not my strong suite but funny the many lessons learned I appreciate and benefit from acquiring a little more lately.

The amazing people, friends, strangers who have become friends, family and church family have pulled me through given me strength and courage and always remind me of how wonderful life is.

The prayers have been answered and I look forward to many fun journeys next year. I look to great achievements accomplished, and many more silver linings to shine.

God Bless and Happy Thanksgiving as I hope your tables are full of food, family ,love,  fellowship,and Gods blessings!


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With all the prayers that rattled heaven you have help enable me to WIN THIS WAR ON BREAST CANCER AS WE HAVE DEFEATED IT!

I have never believed in a mere coincidence as instances happen for a reason~

I was not given a preference between hospitals as its simply who has OR time and can accommodate both of my surgeons schedules.

I was so blessed to have my bilateral mastectomy at Rex as not only did I receive excellent care, the medical staff go above and beyond and are very special angels among us.

My next phase in this  journey started last Friday as I had my pre-op at Rex and had the privilege to sit down with one of the most brilliant anesthesiologist I have ever met. I had general anesthesia seven years prior and was only under twenty minutes. I had a severe allergic reaction that lasted two days.
This surgery took four and a half hours and my anesthesiologist administered "opioid sparring non narcotic anesthesia" and has only been done in about 3-5% of most patients.
I did excellent, as I woke up fully awake (no hang over effect or nausea) and was in my complete frame of mind , a pure relief and blessing.

Thursday we arrived at 10 am and I had my dye injected behind my nipple around 1 pm. This procedure is only a very quick (few seconds) sting and is over. My surgeon whom I'm eternally grateful did not remove my sentinel lymph node and do a dissection at all. This is due to her excellent knowledge and skill. A small area was sent to pathology while I was under and they where able to see 5 lymph nodes ALL CLEAR NO CANCER~
So she spared me any further, as God is great and yet another miracle rushed into that OR as my prognoses is excellent and God has healed me.
My reconstruction surgeon is remarkable as well and has started what will take a year, as I have faith the end result will be good as he is what I consider the best in reconstruction.

My surgery was due to start at 2:30 and much later Rob and my Mother where given an update as to they where just finishing on one side and now moving to the other. Rob did the math and that doubt crept in as he felt this may indicate many lymph nodes removed and cancer found. My mother said she felt the connection and knew there was no cancer and surgery simply was taking a long time and may not of started on time.
I would not of traded them as it was far easier to be asleep than to sit and wait. I am told my surgeon walked out looked at them and "high five" them and said no caner found and all clear!

When I woke up and was in recovery around 9 pm there was no room available, we where fully aware speaking to the nurses what a full miracle and all the blessings I have been given. Its simply remarkable and Gods grace as I went from triple negative stage lllc mid July to 4 months later cancer free!

When we where taken to my room late we had many visits from nurses telling us this is why they chose nursing and medicine for the silver linings and healing cases like me.

I woke up and truly felt like I hit the lottery and that my cheer section, all the prayers that where sent up where answered!

I was sent home and currently have tubes attached to plastic shaped containers the size of your palms on each side of my body. I have what looks like a corset that remains on and is wrapped around my breast and ribs. I am maintaining   the pain as its a very small price to pay and only lasts a short time. My tubes are expected to be removed Tuesday as everyday I am healing. I have plenty of feeling and sensation on my skin.

The hardest part of this journey is now behind me as not only did I concur chemo, now major surgery all I must do is heal and sail through radiation as I'm told is the easiest part of treatment.

Its the best gift to be able to say "I'm cancer free and no longer have breast cancer"

With all the prayers that rattled heaven you have not only helped carry me through this ordeal you have also enabled me to WIN THIS WAR ON BREAST CANCER AS WE HAVE DEFEATED IT!

My treatments with radiation and more surgery will last into late next year, however are truly far less taxing and easier as the difficult parts of treatment are over.

My parents are here as I could not heal without them. Between my Dad and Mom taking care of the kids and Robs endless laundry to the hugs and their emotional wisdom I'm a very blessed lady.

My words of gratitude are not enough as I'm truly blessed, humbled, and so fortunate to have you praying for me you have helped assist in my children having a healthy mother. God Bless you all from the bottom of our hearts!

Know I will heal everyday and get stronger, I can drive in 2 weeks and lift Maxson in 4. My support team are filling in great as my kids are getting plenty of hugs.

The holidays this year are cause for celebration and I will forever have my perspective changed in life and only see all the silver linings~

I will pay it forward and have big plans and ideas how to help others as I will always remember all that have helped me!

Know your mental strength is half the battle and faith will carry you if life's challenges and you to will prevail~

God Bless

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When breast cancer knocked on my door with its "A game" I truly believe not only was it ill equipped it had not done any research on its opponent.

When breast cancer knocked on my door with its "A game" I truly believe not only was it ill equipped  it had not done any research on its opponent.

I have many say to me "I cant do it" or I would of just quit and thrown in the towel.

Here is what I say, Absolutely not, as when you are faced with any adversity in life your inner strength and fight bubbles to the surface and I believe you would be surprised how strong you really are!

We all have our strengths and weakness and for some it takes a challenge to bring out their strength. Just because you may not of needed to use it does not mean its not there and doesn't exist.

I have had a fight and resolve my entire life, as I have faced death my third time now. Not only am I here for a purpose I'm determined to not take a moment for granted and to help others as God intends for us to do.

I have a full complete support system as "team Fox" is a state of the art very efficient machine as we have had years in the making to perfect. I'm profoundly proud of my husband and children! When you add family, church family, friends and God its full proof.

When people ask me why I'm choosing a double mastectomy in light of no evidence of cancer its very simple.
I have been a rule bender my entire life and always up for the gamble if I thought the odds where in my favor. This is the first time I have ever not been willing to play the odds in spite of them in my favor. I wont gamble with something I'm not willing or prepared to lose, so the decision was a very easy one to make.

I will be meeting my radiologist Friday and then the hospital for all my pre-op admittance test. Surreal as my surgery is next Thursday November 13th the day after my father and sons 16th birthday. The anticipation is not fear, its only my wanting it to be over so my healing with Godspeed can start. I am ready to enjoy the holidays and pick up my toddler again.

I am told no driving for two weeks and no picking up my kids for four weeks. My parents are coming for a long visit as I'm very blessed! They will be a great help with sustaining normalcy and add lots of hugs and love to the kids while I heal.

As for my treatment it requires stamina as it is a process, however I have already accomplished great achievements with Gods grace.

I will start radiation in January for six straight weeks at five days a week and have two additional surgery's late next year. I will be closely monitored for the next 3 years and have complete faith I will be considered cured in five years! I'm am completely steadfast in my resolve to be a survivor, live a long life and share Gods blessings!

Please pray for my pathological report to come back clear and no evidence of cancer hiding in my lymph nodes! Please know many women have twenty plus lymph nodes removed due to microscopic cells detected and are twenty plus year survivors too! This is the entire point of the surgery to look and remove any lingering cells. Please also pray for my swift recovery.

I will report and update after surgery as it takes several days for the path report to come it.

God bless

Prayers are working!!

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Simple smiles and few words of kindness and encouragement travel quickly, spread and are not only contagious but also very meaningful in others lives~

Life uncertainties and unforeseeable events is what makes life so fragile but also everyday a precious gift we should enjoy.

Simple smiles and few words of kindness and encouragement travel quickly, spread and are not only contagious but also very meaningful in others lives.

When I have a bad day I stop to consider my great blessings and many others not so fortunate as it changes my perspective and out look very quickly.
It is about what I can learn for my experiences, trials, lessons, blessings, and gather strength and knowledge so I can pass it to my children and share it to help others.

When I consider my major surgery a few short weeks away I have no fear as I realize with no visible cancer I'm one of the lucky ones! God has blessed me so I can have my health restored to enable me to pay it forward , grab and share life's silver linings everyday.

I have been told to consider the impact of not driving for two weeks, or not picking up my toddler four to six weeks. I have been told to consider the pathological report after surgery may find a few microscopic cells in my lymph nodes and I may have several removed. I have also been told to  consider not only losing all feeling in my chest for a life time but also the visual scars and looking completely different in a mirror.

For me the double mastectomy will be the less taxing part of my entire road to recovery in winning and defeating breast cancer.

Here is what I consider to be my reality and what I feel

The double mastectomy significantly reduces my percentage to ever have any re occurrence and greatly assist me in my achieving being cured in three to five years. As does the radiation after surgery.

I am very blessed to have such a fundamental support system with friends and family coming to stay so they can drive my children to car pools and help with our everyday lives.

I have also not only considered but know down to my core that not only has God healed me this far he will continue to do so. I believe I will wake up from surgery with a clear pathological report and be a survivor.
Many woman have many lymph nodes removed and are twenty year plus survivors, thus is why you have the surgery.

As far as losing sensation I could care less as the ultimate goal is to live a long full life and scars are such a minimal  price the trade off and the end result of good health is far greater, I am truly steadfast in my decisions in treatment.

I will heal in God speed and am ready to have my surgery and shore up the next phase in treatment to follow by radiation. The aspect of ending treatment by late January, early February and only have a few minor surgeries later next year is the goal I am aiming to achieve an excellent prognosis, as it has been my game plan all along.

I have come so remarkably far and achieved so much and with Gods blessings am entering surgery with no detectable cancer! That is what I consider to be important! I can honestly careless about looks or lack of feeling, as it is completely irrelevant in the larger scope of it all.

My life is full of love, happiness, hope, friendship, family and driven by faith!

Please keep myself and family in your prayers as my surgery is November 13th

God Bless

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It is almost surreal to consider I will be under going major surgery in a few short weeks as I feel healthy~

It is almost surreal to consider I will be under going major surgery in a few short weeks. Do not get me wrong as I am not parochial to any body part I can live with out that has potential to be life threatening.
It was an easy decision to have a double mastectomy to substantially decrease my percentage of recurrence to breast cancer.

It is difficult to wrap my mind around the next phase as I feel healthy and have complete faith I'm cancer free. Losing my breasts, acclimating to the new picture in the mirror, enduring anesthesia (I do not do well sedated) the pain and lack of using my arms, the inability to pick up my children, complete change in normalcy in our lives and routine is all short term.
I simply can not play the odds, roll the dice because I am not willing to rick or lose what is such a precious gift.

I remain strong and truly believe God will help in my healing quickly and for me to wake up cancer free from surgery. I had someone say to me "God healed you and you where cancer free after two chemo treatments so why not trust you are healed and no surgery just walk away"
I feel God has also given us wisdom and knowledge, access to 21st medicine, the ability and gifts of the surgeons and physicians to save lives that I'm on the correct path and have made proper decisions to remain healthy.

I was by far the most difficult decision I have ever arrived at to take a pure leap of faith and close the chemo therapy chapter as I am now healing and so is my heart damage from chemo. I have an occasional shortness of breath but am getting stronger daily. My reminders are no hair, however wigs are great. The strange thing is I just recently lost my eye lashes three weeks after chemo ended. It is not the vanity aspect it is the function of them to keep dust and such out so my eyes water and are sensitive. The silver lining is the "brows and lashes" grow back quickly.

Once a chapter in treatment ends the anticipation of the next phase and the not knowing is upon me I pray and my faith shines through as I will not entertain fear, negatives, and what if's. God has not only healed and cured me, he has held me, guided me and helped me arrive at all correct decisions I have made on my path to a full recovery.

I am a very energetic, organized Mother of five whom is accustomed to a very busy life and schedule.
Now that I'm headed to surgery and the realization on my recover period and limitations are close upon me, life has given me above what my full schedule is normally.
A friend said to me between my husband and I we are giving our guardian angels a run.

Here are my silver linings as there are many~

My husband was not injured when his car was totaled last week being hit at highway speed by another driver. That driver was not injured either.

I was able to attend Sunday school with Maxson last week.

I am healing daily and God is giving me the stamina and endurance to achieve and meet my family s needs before my pending surgery.

My children are healthy!

We have an abundance of family, friends and neighbors, an amazing church family, and are in excellent company.

Please consider Sunday October 26th having lunch or watching the Carolina / Sea Hawks game at Rudino's
High House Cary~ Take out a pizza if you are unable to dine in

10% of the proceeds (food not alcohol)  from 1-5 pm help assist my medical fund to pay for surgery. I will has have out of pocket and co insurance start over yet again in January as I have radiation treatments and additional surgeries~

Please pray for a successful, cancer free surgery and for God speed in my healing

God Bless

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It is very important for me to follow all signs, make the best choices in light of all the facts and circumstances, be an advocate for my own health~

It is very important for me to follow all signs, make the best choices in light of all the facts and circumstances, be an advocate for my own health, treatments, and care. A physicians egos, demeanor, aggression and temper tantrums simply are not retaliative nor important and I refuse to be bullied or swayed. I will not be a "protocol" and generally grouped with all to please anyone. When the bad out weighs any benefit its time to move on to the next chapter.

The road turns, constantly changes, and needs to be fine tuned as my journey and medical healing regimen is completely unique to me as is others on the journeys. I have met  many who are true heroes and inspirations as they battle stage IV, are not responding to chemo, are children and babies, all fighting and not losing their personal resolve or faith. God too has a plan for them as he does for us all.

My port was removed on Thursday and  was a wright of passage and a well earned achievement. It was a chapter ending as I know God healed my cancer early on and I am ready for my upcoming surgery. I fully believe my next chapter will be full of bright silver linings and blessing with many wonderful people and  healing to come.

I was humbled to experience the Kyle Busch foundations generosity the organization contributes to help women with breast cancer in need. His wife Samantha is an amazing soul that pours time and energy into her busy life to pay it forward and help so many less fortunate with breast cancer.
Pretty in Pink foundation tirelessly works and volunteers to connect with such organizations both big and small to help so many with breast cancer.

I was able to meet and see many NASCAR drivers, pit crews, and all behind the scenes personal that make it look easy. I have a new appreciation of all the hard work contributed to making a race possible.
The pit and behind the scenes was a memorable experience. When the cars are being pushed by crews (a long line of them) you hear "car crossing" and must be prepared to jump out of the way. When you are told its not unusual to spend $30,000 on tires alone you have an appreciation for the cars and what is entailed entirely.

I walk into the next phase of treatment with very minimal knowledge of  how surgery, recovery, reconstruction, timeline, and over all healing will be. I walk in with no fear and a heart full of trust and faith as God's healing in my treatments he will continue to do so.
I look forward to some knowledge and insight into my next chapter as its a step closer to healing and normalcy.

I fully anticipate waking up from surgery with NED (no cancer) and God speed in healing so I can move forward to the radiation treatments.

Please continue to keep myself and family in your prayers as it has carried me this far!


I have had many reach out and tell me I'm hard find and contact, as they have questions or wish to communicate with me.

Please leave a comment with your email address and I will be happy to reach out to you.

 Please know I feel great, fully believe my cancer is completely gone, am healing quickly from chemo, anticipating a quick recovery from surgery, a clear pathology report, minimal pain, and countless blessings!

All things are possible through Christ who strengths us~

God Bless

I will update after I have my surgery date.

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There is no such thing as a coincidence as its merely God choosing to remain anonymous

There is no such thing as a coincidence as its merely God choosing to remain anonymous.

My journey with TNBC has been full of twists and turns no easy answers and certainly no easy choices to be made. I have been pushed to points I never dreamed I could sustain. I have had circumstances reek havoc on my resolve, physical well being and my emotional state as well.
I have been challenged in my faith , and know what its like to experience pure fear.

I have also remained steadfast in faith, sustained over all good health, gained tremendous knowledge, became stronger, heard Gods message, gained many friends, strengthen my family,  my children and even had a few guardian angels help me along the way. And my journey has only closed its first phase as I move on the the next road to recovery.

The initial four rounds of AC chemo (adriamycin has damaged my heart mildly and I am taking low doses of two heart medications to help assist in obtaining its normal function as time will tell.
I started to experience tachycardia and arrhythmia (rapid heart rate & skipping beats)  along with severe shortness of breath. I had an EKG and heart ultrasound preformed and compared to my prior heart tests before chemo began mid July that lead to my findings of my lower function. The shortness of breath is listed as a side effect of taxol the chemo medication I recently received.
I'm happy to report my SOB is getting much better as are my heart symptoms of fast rate and skipping beats.

My oncologist recommend enduring chemo that is causing my SOB and irritating my heart as I was told the taxol doesn't effect your heart the previous chemo damage is done, and I could be given medications to mask side effects and they are cumulative. You need to understand I had a complete clinical response after two chemo treatments and sat for three additional treatments. When I started taxol and was given eight weeks it was due to protocol as its the general standard for all woman with breast cancer and medicine has not studied the outcome If I stopped chemo at that point.

Every woman is different and the variables with this disease are widely great and very unique to each individual.

TNBC has a three year re occurrence rate that varies for each individual and all their factors, however after three years the odds almost diminish and are considered cured at five years.

I have weighed all facts, personal circumstances, treatments, odds, side effects, and health and made a decision to end chemo as the bad is now out weighing the good and I can no longer agree to protocol. Woman finish twelve treatments and can have a re occurrence or new cancer and some complete one or four with tumor still remaining at time of surgery and are survivors.

My individual journey and battle is unique to me however any re occurrence or new cancer rick are low and odds for me are not substantially increased by my chemo treatments ending now. ( I have taken all my antibiotics if you will and my body has had enough) and due to all factors its time for me to schedule surgery.

When I have had any doubts God has in many ways settled them and has guided me to all correct decisions and healing and will continue to do so.

My guardian angel threw a dresser over on me that lead my discovering a lump and finding my TNBC diagnosis as it was no coincidence

I knew what the correct decision was, but was helpful with any fear as another angel I had the privilege of meeting came to me after arriving last with ten minutes in the fourth quarter of my sons middle school football game and said to me.
I believe there are no coincidence's as I struggled to be at this game as we where dentin to meet. I received only one chemo treatment and headed to surgery. I am a twenty year survivor! As my point in "we are all very individual in our cancer journeys".

I have no regrets staining the chemo that effected my heart as it dissipated my cancer and tumor.

God has cured me!

My double mastectomy and radiation assists in  my long term health for no re occurrence or new cancers.

I would change no choice, decision, treatment or steps made as all have served a purpose and lead me to my current point with no cancer seen in good health and ready for the long term victory.

Many different signs, guidance and forms of communication to place or keep us on our correct paths are clear as we just need to listen~

I am hoping to have my port removed next week and I will update soon. I am headed to meet with my surgeon soon and have some questions answered so I can develop  some knowledge of my next chapter.

My blessing remain great and I ask for continued prayers for my full recovery, successful surgery and achieving a clear pathological report. Please pray for all the  less fortunate people and children.

God Bless!

When I turn all doubts and fears over to God and place my trust in his plan and his will, only then am I content and able to accomplish all I am meant to and prevail over TNBC

When I allow fear, doubt, worry and concern into my emotions I can not function and am not myself. When I turn all doubts and fears over to God and place my trust in his plan and his will, only then am I content and able to accomplish all I am meant to.

I was apprehensive when starting taxol and carboplatin , a new drug regimen as any chemo can have side effects. Everyone is different and all react differently. I am a strong believer that your attitude and perspective is half the battle won.

God yet again answered all prayers and turned my moment of weakness into strength as I endured no side effects at all from my 1st treatment. I was able to come home and take no medications at all. I did not need anti nausea medication nor steroids. I feel quit well and am able to be a mother and operate normally in my home.

I do have limitations as the chemo is taxing on my blood counts and lowers my immunity so I must take precautions so I stay healthy to complete treatments.

The chemo I am receiving is cumulative and builds as side effects may come later in treatment, however its a lower dose weekly and we will be able to see it coming and address it head on.

The signs that lead me on my path I am meant to be on are very clear and well defined for me. When I look and keep my eyes open it truly amazes me the answers and clarity I have.

The fundamental differences in my previous oncologist and my new oncologist only further conveniences me as to the importance of seeking the best medical care offered. I am really blessed I asked questions, took insensitive with my own health and care regimen and listen as I knew I needed to seek a new provider, as I am now receiving excellent care.

The doors that are opening for me I am a firm believer are meant to lead me to many others I can reach out to and help.
I look forward to meeting not only leaders in cancer research, charities that help so many, nurses and doctors that save and enhance so many lives, and women who have fought and won and are still fighting. Tuesdays luncheon to kick off breast cancer awareness month will be a wonderful event as I am honored to be invited.

I have arranged to have my chemo a day early so I can accept another invitation I am honored and humbled to of received. Rob and I are very excited to have the privilege to meet Samantha Bush and join her and other women battling breast cancer in the sky box to watch a NASCAR race. She and her husband Kyle Bush do so much and give to support breast cancer charity's and pay it forward to help so many others I feel blessed for this opportunity to meet them.

I have always maintained God has a plan and purpose for all of us. We all have our own bumps in the road however the signs to guided us are there, as well as your ability to see them.

I see so many that inspire me who are battling, have won, seeking a cure, providing charity to others, medical providers, paying it forward that I assure you this world is full of great people who are making a profound positive impact.

I have not a shadow of a doubt that I will continue to achieve no evidence of disease, complete chemo, heal with God's speed after surgery and win this battle.

God Bless



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God has given me plenty of strength to prevail against TNBC as I already have in many ways! I'm ready to finish my battle and ensure all cancer cells are non existent in my body~

 Its not the size of the girl in the fight~ Its the size of the fight in the girl! Lying down is not an option so I stand tall and fight as I will finish this! God has given me plenty of strength to prevail as I already have in many ways! I'm ready to finish my battle and ensure all cancer cells are non existent in my body~


I met with a chief medical doctor yesterday whom is en-charge of an entire oncology department. His expertise vast knowledge, and insight helped lead us to the next phase of treatment and best option for myself and family. Rob and I really appreciated all his answers that helped us arrive and some very tough decisions.

The unfortunate part is I will receive an eight week regimen of (new drugs) taxol & carboplatin weekly. I start Friday and end early  November  directly after my sons 16th birthday and just before my husbands birthday. What a great gift to end chemo and move closer to a long healthy life before the holidays. 

I have struggled with additional chemo treatments as my cancer is gone on imagining with no detection. The many problems that arise are simply it has not been studied IF a patient quits chemo before the known regimens that work to help achieve a complete pathological response (no cancer cells found at surgery) what may or may not happen. 
A CCR (complete clinical response) that I have achieved is an indicator but not the same as a CPR (complete pathological response).

I may or may not have any microscopic cells at all in my body since my tumor and cancerous lymph node appear completely normal, modern medicine has no answers and no current studies so we have no way to test or know. Surgery is the only way to know  as when the lymph node and tissue is removed and tested. So why cant I stop chemo now have surgery  and if I do not have a clear pathological report resume chemo? Due to far too many variables I must complete chemo first.

The difficult aspect and realization for me personality is I have pure trust and faith in the lord and struggled with "God healed me so why would I have any microscopic cells in my body?
And since the chemo killed a large tumor and cancer in my lymph node why would it of not destroyed any puny/tiny cells that would be floating around?

It is certainly a large pill to swallow hearing "due to no studies have been done with under eight chemo treatments" to know what the outcome would be, so I must endure all eight  additional treatments.


I prayed and all answers are very clear~

God did heal me and protected me against major side effects and blessed me with sustaining good health through the roughest AC chemo drugs I have now completed.

My path was very well lit  and I was guided to a specialist yesterday as the circumstances where no mere coincidence that  led me to the chief medical oncologist who is now my physician.


I have been a rule bender a risk taker and I have beaten all odds numerous times in my life. However this is a disease I must not take any risks~ I'm unable to roll the dice as I am not willing to lose what is so precious that is on the line~

God led me the my new oncologist and I trust him.

I am told the new drugs are far less taxing than my original drugs I had previously. I am told I will sail through my weekly regimen with ease and much less side effects as I pray I do. 

I will be given a hefty dose on benadryl through my IV this Friday for the 1st treatment as the allergic reaction is prominent with taxol. Once we see that I am not allergic to it I can forgo benadryl with my additional treatments. I will not need to endure any more shots at home, and only have anti nausea drugs as needed not mandated basis, so much less drugs to endure than previously. Eight weeks in the scheme of things is a small task to help me arrive at NED ( no evidence of disease) when I wake up from surgery!

We are aiming to complete surgery early December so I will be healed somewhat by Christmas and our youngest 2nd birthday.

As a mother I can look at my children and be able to tell them your mom completed all medical regimens, did all medicine had to offer and fought with all I have to help ensure no re-occurrence of cancer and a long healthy life.

I have many silver linings as my additional treatment called for 12 additional chemo's  and with Gods healing hands it has now been reduced 30% to 8 and dropped off an entire month of treatments.

I received a phone call from the director of Pretty in Pink foundation and have been invited to their 10th anniversary luncheon to kick off breast cancer awareness month.And hear from many speakers and front leaders that help many battle cancer in hopes of a cure. Very honored to attend this event.

I was also told that Samantha Bush "NASCAR driver Kyle Bush wife" was moved by my journey with TNBC and has invited me to Charlotte motor speed way to a race to meet her.

I appreciate all the prayers and support and its very humbling and the support helps in my recovery.

I too am working hard to support other women on their journeys with breast cancer as that is what this is all about. Paying it forward, reaching out and doing all you are able to help others.

I have always maintained that we all have our challenges in life. At times regardless of if you crawl or even claw through toward the light on the other side not only will you arrive stronger, enduring life's lessons gives us knowledge and insight and places us on a better path.


Please continue to pray that I will tolerate the new drugs and complete this last phase of chemo treatments healthy and please pray as I do for all the less fortunate people and children

God Bless


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Never with my TNBC stage lll was I in fear of my life~ I now find myself in a brilliant predicament

I did not choose this journey and disease as no one would willing choose an illness. It knocked on my door and picked me on my turf and home front and my immediate choice was to fight. Never even with my TNBC stage lll diagnosis, and when I was warned and told how aggressive triple negative breast cancer is  was I ever in fear for my life.
Not for a moment have I ever envisioned losing the battle, war or certainly not my life. I have just always felt down to my core I was going to win this battle and eliminate my cancer and become a survivor. Your attitude is half the battle! If I can fight so hard with five kids you too can prevail over any of  life's challenges as all you need is faith and to pull from your inner strength.

I had moments with the initial diagnosis before my pet scan wondering what I was up against, but also knowing I was up to fighting anything.

I now find myself in a brilliant predicament as I have had a complete clinical response to chemo and my ultrasound confirmed my tumor and  positive lymph node no longer have cancer after my 2nd chemo treatment~ I am such a minority that I will see specialist at Duke to map out the next few chemo treatments to finish this phase of treatment. All we are now doing is chasing any microscopic cells I may or may not have so I have an excellent pathology report of no cancer at surgery.
When I think about what a miracle God has bestowed on myself and family I feel raw emotion and gratitude words can not express. Actions are in order as I will always pay it forward and help all I am able to!

It is important for me to share in hopes that I can be of help to others. I fired my oncologist sadly as he is over run with patients and under staffed with a few whom should not be in medicine and entirely to many mistakes have been made.I am not condoning anyone doing this under going medical treatment unless you have another physician to continue care with. As a patient you are entitled to ask questions, disagree, seek additional options and most importantly receive excellent medical care.

I was due to to undergo 12 additional (different drug) chemo treatments weekly. A regime that was handed out to me when I initially met my oncologist and had cancer. Before he had any idea what God's will can do that I was going to eliminate my tumor and lymph node after two chemo treatments.
I prayed and knew God healed me and to endure 12 more treatments was an over kill to say the very least.
I had a leap of faith and chose to not sit in the chemo chair for the start of the new drugs. It appears I was correct in trusting in God, and my own feelings. It seems I only need under half of my initial 12 week treatments. Had I not of trusted in God or my knowing my own body and listened to that inner voice I could of received a double dose of chemo I did not need and that is quit frightening.

Please listen to that voice "your instinct" and trust as chances are you feel that way for a reason.

My path remains the same I still feel a double mastectomy is the best option for myself, children, husband and family~ I'm just an incredibly blessed lady who will now receive a whole lot less toxic chemo!


I will update after I hash out my new regimen and approximate chemo end date and surgery date.

I ask for prayers that this last phase in chemo ensures me going to surgery cancer free with a clear pathology report. And I tolerate the new drug with no side effects~

Please pray for the two year old  and the mom with cancer in many organs still fighting! Who are my hero's!

Please help me pray for all the less fortunate people and for great outcomes!



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Answers are on the horizon as I'm headed to the best in the country~

After eight weeks I finally received an appointment at Duke as many consider them the best in the country and leaders in Cancer research and treatments!

I now am fully aware of how unique and a complete miracle that my tumor and lymph node, cancer was completely gone after two chemo treatments. I endured two additional treatments to kill any microscopic cells we may not see and completed all four treatments.

The next chapter of 12 weekly treatments are on my horizon and where assigned  to me in the beginning , before chemo began, and  before the oncologist could for see Gods mercy and healing any my becoming cancer free so early on in treatment.

I am very blessed to be given an opportunity to sit down with the oncologists at Duke and hear first hand their experiences with women like myself and if 12 more weeks is an over kill or the regimen I must continue to endure. I feel God has healed me and placed me on this path so I pray Duke has some answers to the important questions I seek and undoubtedly can potentially be a "game changer".

I find myself anxious but relived to finally have some answers from the pioneers in breast cancer as their access to data, trials, and percentages from all over the country can and will assist me so I can make the correct decisions and close this chapter as I head into surgery and start the beginning to the end of this breast cancer life altering journey.
I feel extraordinarily blessed to say my cancers gone and I'm ready to take all steps to ensure it never returns. My double mastectomy will take place in December as its surreal almost to consider losing both breast and enduring a major surgery. However my sister said it best " I'm not partial to any body part that I can live without, that is trying to kill me". I am human and a woman as it was a difficult decision to have both breasts removed. The reconstructive process takes a full year than an additional year to really know and see how minimal any scars will or will not be.

At this point of my journey I find that simply being rid of my cancer and the prognoses of having a great chance of a full life and no recurrence is incentive and enough and a blessing that all else is simply a means to an end.

I am ready to end chemo treatments and have my immune system fully in tact so I can resume normal activities and participate in my children's lives, attend school functions and return to church. Be able to celebrate the joy of life full speed ahead.

I'm am told by many survivors that once I close this chapter and walk away with my life that I will make life alternating changes and become a bit different.
As I laid in my bed last night watching TV with my 6, 4, and 20 month old holding them I thought I would not want to be anywhere else doing anything else.

I love my life, my children, my husband, my marriage, my family and my friends. I do find myself strengthen, and resolve to help others and take all great things from this journey and place them forward. I am humbled and grateful of my many blessings. I'm sadden by others in their battles that are struggling but inspired they are still fighting.
I have never asked or thought why me, as I would change nothing and have faith and entrust God has always held me.

My life as all life is a precious gift meant to live fully, happily, faithfully, as  christian's , helpfully, kindly and lovingly~

I will continue to pray for all the less fortunate people and for great outcomes~


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Life is not always easy nor is it guaranteed ~ The value of the lessons learned make us stronger and wiser~

Life is not always easy nor is it guaranteed. We are not entitled to anything, as I teach my children hard work leads to self worth and a great appreciation of what you have earned. I am an open book in personality with a great work ethic as I'm open with my children and teach them to trust in the Lord, be honest and kind to others, stand up for your self if need be, work hard, play hard and the sky is the limit as you can achieve any dream and goal in life. Life is a gift and obstacles can and will be placed in our path. Its how we react and diminish those obstacles that make the value of the lessons learned important.

We have had many obstacles some extraordinarily difficult in life that at the time seemed unbearable but as life altering as they where, God was helping place us on the path of a healthy far greater life than previous and removing all the toxic. We crawled and even  clawed at a few low points towards the light and strength of God and I assure you when we arrived at the end of the obstacle it was all well worth it. The lessons have strengthen my marriage and made us steel, enabled us to raise our children in Gods name and to grow into fine adults, contribute to society, help others, and stand tall.


When I received my first diagnosis of breast cancer I went into fight mode and immediately went into mind over matter, and pulled from all my inner strength, determination, pure resolve to come out swinging and not let up until all the cancer was and is completely eliminated and out of my body. The thought has never crossed my mind that even with stage lll I would lose my life or the battle ever! I know deep in my sole that I have much work to do here and babies to raise to pay it forward .
I hear medical workers and physicians say your mental and attitude have much to do with your healing and out come. My oncologist   said to me without chemo, surgery and radiation I had a 90% chance of death. He proceeded to tell me that God gave him the knowledge and ability to treat and heal me as I whole heartily agree! I realize how blessed and what a pure miracle I an given to not only sail through chemo but to have all my cancer, tumor and lymph nodes completely gone this early in chemo. I assure this is a blessing and I plan on not disappointing God, and moving forward after my recovery and helping others as I've said before.

I still have new journeys, treatments and obstacles on my road to a full recovery, but remain steadfast knowing and believing it will continue to be mild and par for the coarse as it has been.
All things are possible through Christ who strengthens me.

I realize we all have our battles and obstacles in our lives and on our personal journeys and I say to you have faith, believe, pull your inner strength, and you too will prevail. Not only will you come through stronger the lessons learned will make you wiser.

God Bless know I'm praying for you all and appreciate your prayers~

Prayers clearly work and God is truly great!

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Everyday is a gift however yesterday was special for me~

Everyday is a gift however yesterday was a very special day. I had the privilege to return to the radiology and breast imaging facility where my journey began. Eight short weeks ago I had several mammograms, a biopsy, and ribbons placed for the surgeon. I had no knowledge of my triple negative breast cancer stage lll status or my road ahead, I just knew it was not good as the ribbons where placed in my breast. I was scared and all alone as my husband was home with the kids because we where told by a GYN doctor the day before that my tumor was a cyst and she felt it was benign and was not cancer. I walked in to have a mammogram with a very false sense of security. The angles that God has placed at this imaging center are truly amazing, as they inspire me. Not only did they realize I had breast cancer they had to inform me of it. The health care workers stayed late on a Friday in spite of there own families to get my biopsy done and sent to pathology ASAP. They are the most caring and compassionate women I am blessed to of met. They are so positive and enabled me to have hope, faith and strength to begin my journey in what feels like years ago.
I cant imagine walking in there shoes as they see woman daily sadly as cancer shows and they give strength and  hope to others like me.

I was able to have a repeat ultrasound and share in my incredible news (nothing short of a miracle) yesterday with these amazing ladies as it showed NO CANCER in my breast or lymph nodes anywhere after only three chemo treatments! I was elated and so glad to of shared the wonderful news with these special ladies as they make such a difference in not only my life but so many others.

My cancer is gone as I am victorious early in my battle. My pure inner strength, resolve, determination, God's strength, all the prayers and angels behind me helping me come out swinging has paid off. I now must finish this battle and sustain my endurance and health as I still have a recovery road ahead.
I must continue  chemo therapy as 21st century medicine is not full proof and we have no data or percentage rates "If I stopped chemo now and headed for surgery". Any microscopic cancer cells that may be in my blood or body must be killed by chemo. I will finish my last "difficult drug regime" tomorrow and start my less difficult regimen for 12 straight weeks. I have come so far I will not risk a recurrence due to a unseen cancer cells because I ended chemo to early. I will finish this phase of my recovery and seal my cancers fate.
I am stead fast in my decision to have a double mastectomy even tho I'm now a candidate for a lesser surgery (a lumpectomy). My chances of any recurrence are 30% if I chose a lumpectomy. My percentages of any cancer recurrence after my double mastectomy is less than 1& 1/2 % over my lifetime so was a very easy decision for myself and family. I'm not partial to anything on my body I can live without that could potentially kill me.

I'm only faced challenges I will continue to concur as I know the blessings are and will continue to carry me through. I will be given benadryl with my new chemo meds as it makes me very sleepy. The silver lining is the meds are easier to endure and some women even report their hair growing  back as they are on the weekly regime. The next 12 weeks will assist in my recovery to combat any microscopic cells. The mastectomy alleviates the recurrence with radiation. The reconstruction side of it begins at mastectomy however does require additional surgery and will be completed within 9-12 months, as it requires some time to complete.

I am ready to sustain, endure and finish what cancer started as I'm renewed and up for the remainder of this chapter and journey in my life. For me personality cancer has made me stronger not only in spirit, emotionally and in my faith I see very clearly what I had not before.
I continue to "hold my own" with my blood counts and my overall  health on chemo drugs.
Please continue to pray my organs, and blood counts remain good and over all health on chemo so I can enter surgery (end of December) healthy and finish chemo.

I was able to attend www.1in9.com  breast cancer charity last night and meet the remarkable founder Stephanie who herself and team do Gods work and help so many with breast cancer! What a inspiration and blessing to see the gifts and talents and extraordinary ability to help so many in need!
We had an old friend whom its been far to long (five years) since we have seen her come out and share laughs with us, I enjoyed catching up with last night as well.


We all know how pray works, so please continue as I'm a reminded of Gods will and grace everyday!


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The "Mommy side" of me struggles but knows this achievement of being cancer free and a survivor is the greatest gift I will ever give my children and family!

Between all the doctor appointments, labs, ultra sounds and interviewing reconstructive surgeons it is not difficult for things to intertwine together and get muddled. Throw in my five children, four car pools, football five days a week, my oldest job schedule and all in between. I am very good at my job as president of my family, my organization alone is impeccable. Not only am I blessed, I love what I do. When I walked away from nursing to be at home it was the best thing I have ever done in life.
Now that I am living with my "new normal" even tho it will not last forever I find myself really struggling on the medical side of this journey currently.
The reconstruction side of it as I said some decisions are easy and others are very taxing. I am very excited to have my last AC chemo ( the harder drug combo) this Friday 9/5 as I feel is a rite of passage as I have earned, learned and fought to get rid of my tumor in that first chapter of becoming cancer free.
I can see vaguely the light shining as I enter what I'm told are "far less taxing drugs" administered weekly to end chemo in December.


The specialist have yet to all agree and concur as we have really received different opinions and options headed into the next phase the surgery that it can become confusing and difficult as the decisions I make can have a lifetime result or effects that can quickly leave me with little choices.
I will continue to ask questions, read and work through all opinions taking a little from each physician until I arrive at the correct decisions for me.
Its a blessing as I was able to connect and see Gods will clearly in my guidance to my surgeon and oncologist. I do however know and trust I will be led to the well lit path and the correct choices again as I need to not let the confusion and difference of opinion sway me and misguide me.
I have very important choices that ultimately can and will effect my life as I know God will provide and answer our prayers as he has always done.

The struggles currently are from my "mommy side". I know the current  reality as my children need me healthy and to stay on coarse with chemo to end this current phase of treatment. My drive to be disease free at surgery and complete radiation so I walk away a survivor and not look back is the biggest and greatest achievement I will ever do for myself and family!
The difficult part is missing some of my children's achievements this year. My 1st grader has been working on a writing assignment and will read it Thursday. Rob and I think outside the box and he will go record it for me so we can watch it at dinner as a family so Mom gets to see it.
I go to a few football practices and sit on a blanket in the shade away from everyone.
Some of the holidays will be difficult as the preschool Thanksgiving party Daddy too will attend.

When on chemo and a weekly schedule its so important to stay well as my WBC counts go from low to normal often. Even if they are on a normal count day if I get sick a low grade fever 100.4 it can be life threatening on chemo and certainly alter my treatment coarse so I take great precautions. No church as I will send Rob to take them to Sunday school and I pray at home. No elementary schools, preschools, crowds of people or children.
We do have five kids and must have some normalcy as neighborhood kids do come play at my home they just wash their hands. I cant live in a bubble I just cant take unnecessary ricks either.

I look forward to chemo graduation early December and my immune system being intact and celebrating the close of that chapter.
I know next school year as Addy enters kindergarten, Max and I can go have lunch with his big sisters and watch football games from the bleachers. I will really cherish all achievements and personal goals all my children make as I see clearly the gift of life.

My support system is so truly great the blessing is simply humbling.My husband reschedules meetings to attend his children s milestones because their Mom is unable. When I need rest he shuts the door and steps into "big shoes" as five kids are really a two parent job, but God has strengthen him as his ability to sustain a demanding career and take on a second job (mine) is a blessing in itself.
Our 15 year old whom steps up to the plate and helps with his siblings and 11 year old also and is not opposed to changing a diaper.
My parents and siblings, brother in law who work effortlessly to organized a Harley bike run in Florida in October to help with my surgeons portion and radiation bills we will need to prepay thousands. They to in spite of their children, careers, and busy lives spend countless hours to help us.
My caregiver who is God sent and amazing with my 20 month old and children and the car pools as I'm at the doctors or chemo chair.

All the support for meals people drop off and support from friends and neighbors. Woman who offer tips, advice and support who too live with or have survived cancer.
I feel like it really does take a village and due to all levels of great support my recovery is a very efficient machine in all faucets.

I feel Gods grace as well as all my love and support and am so grateful. I pray for the less fortunate and try to lend my support in ways I'm able so they too can heal and recover as I am.

I have an ultrasound Wednesday as I am excited. The first one was used for my diagnosis 7 weeks ago (feels like a life time) and showed that UGLY tumor on the right side of my breast and under arm lymph node.
They are now GONE so I will see normal breast tissue as I have earned it and cant wait to see it!
I will update Wednesday after my ultrasound.
Please know my eye has never left the prize as I will finish this fight and am already victorious  in many ways.

Prayers needed

Please pray My last AC chemo treatment will have mild side effects, my new treatment as well and that I'm not allergic to the new drugs.

Please pray I'm able to make the correct decisions with my upcoming surgery

God Bless and know I pray for all of you

I hope you grab many silver linings and blessings as I do, life is an amazing gift


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It is not the need to restore my faith as it is in place as much as I need to stand back, reflect and pray

As I'm feeling more challenged than often, I take a step back and reflect as life has many lessons for me to learn from, and know God is lighting my path way.

It is difficult to have many specialty physicians whom are all different and differ in opinions~ It becomes confusing as for me I'm the girl who wants it achieved yesterday and off my plate. I do well being armed with factual knowledge and arriving at a decision , so I can acclimate and achieve that goal. As of lately I am experiencing the "data, facts, opinions,has been  studied  and not studied faze in my next step of my mastectomy and reconstruction process.
It is difficult for me personality to have very different opinions any where from A-Z even from the top reconstruction surgeons. My oncologist and mastectomy surgeons have long been decided as God led me to them and my progress is great and my prognosis and life long outcome even greater as God has been clear to Rob and I as to that healing path of this journey.

As for the next step after chemotherapy is a very different and individual decision for any woman with breast cancer. For me personality I made the decision almost immediately that I wanted reconstruction for many personal reasons however, as easy as that decision came it is not so easy to choose from the many choices that are entailed. Some options must be done at the time of the mastectomy if like me you will receive radiation. Chemo has no lasting effects as you do heal and recover. Radiation is very important as it kills any microscopic cells unseen and helps ensure a full life of being cancer free for me. It does however come with a life time of some effects that last forever and can not be undone such as your chest muscle is frozen and will not move any longer. I did choose to have an implant put in however is a long process as a muscle spacer must be put in place at the time of my mastectomy behind my muscle before radiation and gradually  stretched. I will then under go radiation depending on my pathology report at the time of surgery I will know how many weeks will be involved. I will then wear the spacer approximately six months before they are removed and exchanged for a permanent implant.
This process is wear many doctors differ and studies conflict or lack answers. I know what outcome I am seeking just not the coarse or fine tuning of the pathway I will arrive. I meet with a reconstruction surgeon in a few weeks to seek more answers as its a "hurry up and wait" process.

I finish my old chemo regime on 9-5 as the small cracks are showing and the drugs are cumulative and can take their toll. I continue to only have small side effects that I heal quickly from.

I'm excited to begin my new chemo drugs as I'm told are lesser and lesser side effects also so I can close out the chemo process of this journey and beat cancer I never look back!
My new drug taxol can have an allergic reaction so please pray I am not allergic to it and tolerate it well.

I will pray as I do daily and know God is continuing to guide me to make the correct decisions for myself and family and is shining brightly so my path remains well lit!

I will not falter, crumble not even sway as I'm so blessed with more than ample strength and endurance to finish this marathon and be cancer free for my life time!

I not only have pure trust and faith in God I'm blessed with my amazing allies and support  in my husband, children, parents, siblings ,family,friends, neighbors and other cancer warriors I will never be defeated!

Pray for your inner strength and turn it all over to God because when you do it all becomes so very simple!

God Bless and please keep praying for me and my family as it is working and God is listening!

God Bless