Answers are on the horizon as I'm headed to the best in the country~

After eight weeks I finally received an appointment at Duke as many consider them the best in the country and leaders in Cancer research and treatments!

I now am fully aware of how unique and a complete miracle that my tumor and lymph node, cancer was completely gone after two chemo treatments. I endured two additional treatments to kill any microscopic cells we may not see and completed all four treatments.

The next chapter of 12 weekly treatments are on my horizon and where assigned  to me in the beginning , before chemo began, and  before the oncologist could for see Gods mercy and healing any my becoming cancer free so early on in treatment.

I am very blessed to be given an opportunity to sit down with the oncologists at Duke and hear first hand their experiences with women like myself and if 12 more weeks is an over kill or the regimen I must continue to endure. I feel God has healed me and placed me on this path so I pray Duke has some answers to the important questions I seek and undoubtedly can potentially be a "game changer".

I find myself anxious but relived to finally have some answers from the pioneers in breast cancer as their access to data, trials, and percentages from all over the country can and will assist me so I can make the correct decisions and close this chapter as I head into surgery and start the beginning to the end of this breast cancer life altering journey.
I feel extraordinarily blessed to say my cancers gone and I'm ready to take all steps to ensure it never returns. My double mastectomy will take place in December as its surreal almost to consider losing both breast and enduring a major surgery. However my sister said it best " I'm not partial to any body part that I can live without, that is trying to kill me". I am human and a woman as it was a difficult decision to have both breasts removed. The reconstructive process takes a full year than an additional year to really know and see how minimal any scars will or will not be.

At this point of my journey I find that simply being rid of my cancer and the prognoses of having a great chance of a full life and no recurrence is incentive and enough and a blessing that all else is simply a means to an end.

I am ready to end chemo treatments and have my immune system fully in tact so I can resume normal activities and participate in my children's lives, attend school functions and return to church. Be able to celebrate the joy of life full speed ahead.

I'm am told by many survivors that once I close this chapter and walk away with my life that I will make life alternating changes and become a bit different.
As I laid in my bed last night watching TV with my 6, 4, and 20 month old holding them I thought I would not want to be anywhere else doing anything else.

I love my life, my children, my husband, my marriage, my family and my friends. I do find myself strengthen, and resolve to help others and take all great things from this journey and place them forward. I am humbled and grateful of my many blessings. I'm sadden by others in their battles that are struggling but inspired they are still fighting.
I have never asked or thought why me, as I would change nothing and have faith and entrust God has always held me.

My life as all life is a precious gift meant to live fully, happily, faithfully, as  christian's , helpfully, kindly and lovingly~

I will continue to pray for all the less fortunate people and for great outcomes~


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