When I turn all doubts and fears over to God and place my trust in his plan and his will, only then am I content and able to accomplish all I am meant to and prevail over TNBC

When I allow fear, doubt, worry and concern into my emotions I can not function and am not myself. When I turn all doubts and fears over to God and place my trust in his plan and his will, only then am I content and able to accomplish all I am meant to.

I was apprehensive when starting taxol and carboplatin , a new drug regimen as any chemo can have side effects. Everyone is different and all react differently. I am a strong believer that your attitude and perspective is half the battle won.

God yet again answered all prayers and turned my moment of weakness into strength as I endured no side effects at all from my 1st treatment. I was able to come home and take no medications at all. I did not need anti nausea medication nor steroids. I feel quit well and am able to be a mother and operate normally in my home.

I do have limitations as the chemo is taxing on my blood counts and lowers my immunity so I must take precautions so I stay healthy to complete treatments.

The chemo I am receiving is cumulative and builds as side effects may come later in treatment, however its a lower dose weekly and we will be able to see it coming and address it head on.

The signs that lead me on my path I am meant to be on are very clear and well defined for me. When I look and keep my eyes open it truly amazes me the answers and clarity I have.

The fundamental differences in my previous oncologist and my new oncologist only further conveniences me as to the importance of seeking the best medical care offered. I am really blessed I asked questions, took insensitive with my own health and care regimen and listen as I knew I needed to seek a new provider, as I am now receiving excellent care.

The doors that are opening for me I am a firm believer are meant to lead me to many others I can reach out to and help.
I look forward to meeting not only leaders in cancer research, charities that help so many, nurses and doctors that save and enhance so many lives, and women who have fought and won and are still fighting. Tuesdays luncheon to kick off breast cancer awareness month will be a wonderful event as I am honored to be invited.

I have arranged to have my chemo a day early so I can accept another invitation I am honored and humbled to of received. Rob and I are very excited to have the privilege to meet Samantha Bush and join her and other women battling breast cancer in the sky box to watch a NASCAR race. She and her husband Kyle Bush do so much and give to support breast cancer charity's and pay it forward to help so many others I feel blessed for this opportunity to meet them.

I have always maintained God has a plan and purpose for all of us. We all have our own bumps in the road however the signs to guided us are there, as well as your ability to see them.

I see so many that inspire me who are battling, have won, seeking a cure, providing charity to others, medical providers, paying it forward that I assure you this world is full of great people who are making a profound positive impact.

I have not a shadow of a doubt that I will continue to achieve no evidence of disease, complete chemo, heal with God's speed after surgery and win this battle.

God Bless



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God has given me plenty of strength to prevail against TNBC as I already have in many ways! I'm ready to finish my battle and ensure all cancer cells are non existent in my body~

 Its not the size of the girl in the fight~ Its the size of the fight in the girl! Lying down is not an option so I stand tall and fight as I will finish this! God has given me plenty of strength to prevail as I already have in many ways! I'm ready to finish my battle and ensure all cancer cells are non existent in my body~


I met with a chief medical doctor yesterday whom is en-charge of an entire oncology department. His expertise vast knowledge, and insight helped lead us to the next phase of treatment and best option for myself and family. Rob and I really appreciated all his answers that helped us arrive and some very tough decisions.

The unfortunate part is I will receive an eight week regimen of (new drugs) taxol & carboplatin weekly. I start Friday and end early  November  directly after my sons 16th birthday and just before my husbands birthday. What a great gift to end chemo and move closer to a long healthy life before the holidays. 

I have struggled with additional chemo treatments as my cancer is gone on imagining with no detection. The many problems that arise are simply it has not been studied IF a patient quits chemo before the known regimens that work to help achieve a complete pathological response (no cancer cells found at surgery) what may or may not happen. 
A CCR (complete clinical response) that I have achieved is an indicator but not the same as a CPR (complete pathological response).

I may or may not have any microscopic cells at all in my body since my tumor and cancerous lymph node appear completely normal, modern medicine has no answers and no current studies so we have no way to test or know. Surgery is the only way to know  as when the lymph node and tissue is removed and tested. So why cant I stop chemo now have surgery  and if I do not have a clear pathological report resume chemo? Due to far too many variables I must complete chemo first.

The difficult aspect and realization for me personality is I have pure trust and faith in the lord and struggled with "God healed me so why would I have any microscopic cells in my body?
And since the chemo killed a large tumor and cancer in my lymph node why would it of not destroyed any puny/tiny cells that would be floating around?

It is certainly a large pill to swallow hearing "due to no studies have been done with under eight chemo treatments" to know what the outcome would be, so I must endure all eight  additional treatments.


I prayed and all answers are very clear~

God did heal me and protected me against major side effects and blessed me with sustaining good health through the roughest AC chemo drugs I have now completed.

My path was very well lit  and I was guided to a specialist yesterday as the circumstances where no mere coincidence that  led me to the chief medical oncologist who is now my physician.


I have been a rule bender a risk taker and I have beaten all odds numerous times in my life. However this is a disease I must not take any risks~ I'm unable to roll the dice as I am not willing to lose what is so precious that is on the line~

God led me the my new oncologist and I trust him.

I am told the new drugs are far less taxing than my original drugs I had previously. I am told I will sail through my weekly regimen with ease and much less side effects as I pray I do. 

I will be given a hefty dose on benadryl through my IV this Friday for the 1st treatment as the allergic reaction is prominent with taxol. Once we see that I am not allergic to it I can forgo benadryl with my additional treatments. I will not need to endure any more shots at home, and only have anti nausea drugs as needed not mandated basis, so much less drugs to endure than previously. Eight weeks in the scheme of things is a small task to help me arrive at NED ( no evidence of disease) when I wake up from surgery!

We are aiming to complete surgery early December so I will be healed somewhat by Christmas and our youngest 2nd birthday.

As a mother I can look at my children and be able to tell them your mom completed all medical regimens, did all medicine had to offer and fought with all I have to help ensure no re-occurrence of cancer and a long healthy life.

I have many silver linings as my additional treatment called for 12 additional chemo's  and with Gods healing hands it has now been reduced 30% to 8 and dropped off an entire month of treatments.

I received a phone call from the director of Pretty in Pink foundation and have been invited to their 10th anniversary luncheon to kick off breast cancer awareness month.And hear from many speakers and front leaders that help many battle cancer in hopes of a cure. Very honored to attend this event.

I was also told that Samantha Bush "NASCAR driver Kyle Bush wife" was moved by my journey with TNBC and has invited me to Charlotte motor speed way to a race to meet her.

I appreciate all the prayers and support and its very humbling and the support helps in my recovery.

I too am working hard to support other women on their journeys with breast cancer as that is what this is all about. Paying it forward, reaching out and doing all you are able to help others.

I have always maintained that we all have our challenges in life. At times regardless of if you crawl or even claw through toward the light on the other side not only will you arrive stronger, enduring life's lessons gives us knowledge and insight and places us on a better path.


Please continue to pray that I will tolerate the new drugs and complete this last phase of chemo treatments healthy and please pray as I do for all the less fortunate people and children

God Bless


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Never with my TNBC stage lll was I in fear of my life~ I now find myself in a brilliant predicament

I did not choose this journey and disease as no one would willing choose an illness. It knocked on my door and picked me on my turf and home front and my immediate choice was to fight. Never even with my TNBC stage lll diagnosis, and when I was warned and told how aggressive triple negative breast cancer is  was I ever in fear for my life.
Not for a moment have I ever envisioned losing the battle, war or certainly not my life. I have just always felt down to my core I was going to win this battle and eliminate my cancer and become a survivor. Your attitude is half the battle! If I can fight so hard with five kids you too can prevail over any of  life's challenges as all you need is faith and to pull from your inner strength.

I had moments with the initial diagnosis before my pet scan wondering what I was up against, but also knowing I was up to fighting anything.

I now find myself in a brilliant predicament as I have had a complete clinical response to chemo and my ultrasound confirmed my tumor and  positive lymph node no longer have cancer after my 2nd chemo treatment~ I am such a minority that I will see specialist at Duke to map out the next few chemo treatments to finish this phase of treatment. All we are now doing is chasing any microscopic cells I may or may not have so I have an excellent pathology report of no cancer at surgery.
When I think about what a miracle God has bestowed on myself and family I feel raw emotion and gratitude words can not express. Actions are in order as I will always pay it forward and help all I am able to!

It is important for me to share in hopes that I can be of help to others. I fired my oncologist sadly as he is over run with patients and under staffed with a few whom should not be in medicine and entirely to many mistakes have been made.I am not condoning anyone doing this under going medical treatment unless you have another physician to continue care with. As a patient you are entitled to ask questions, disagree, seek additional options and most importantly receive excellent medical care.

I was due to to undergo 12 additional (different drug) chemo treatments weekly. A regime that was handed out to me when I initially met my oncologist and had cancer. Before he had any idea what God's will can do that I was going to eliminate my tumor and lymph node after two chemo treatments.
I prayed and knew God healed me and to endure 12 more treatments was an over kill to say the very least.
I had a leap of faith and chose to not sit in the chemo chair for the start of the new drugs. It appears I was correct in trusting in God, and my own feelings. It seems I only need under half of my initial 12 week treatments. Had I not of trusted in God or my knowing my own body and listened to that inner voice I could of received a double dose of chemo I did not need and that is quit frightening.

Please listen to that voice "your instinct" and trust as chances are you feel that way for a reason.

My path remains the same I still feel a double mastectomy is the best option for myself, children, husband and family~ I'm just an incredibly blessed lady who will now receive a whole lot less toxic chemo!


I will update after I hash out my new regimen and approximate chemo end date and surgery date.

I ask for prayers that this last phase in chemo ensures me going to surgery cancer free with a clear pathology report. And I tolerate the new drug with no side effects~

Please pray for the two year old  and the mom with cancer in many organs still fighting! Who are my hero's!

Please help me pray for all the less fortunate people and for great outcomes!



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Answers are on the horizon as I'm headed to the best in the country~

After eight weeks I finally received an appointment at Duke as many consider them the best in the country and leaders in Cancer research and treatments!

I now am fully aware of how unique and a complete miracle that my tumor and lymph node, cancer was completely gone after two chemo treatments. I endured two additional treatments to kill any microscopic cells we may not see and completed all four treatments.

The next chapter of 12 weekly treatments are on my horizon and where assigned  to me in the beginning , before chemo began, and  before the oncologist could for see Gods mercy and healing any my becoming cancer free so early on in treatment.

I am very blessed to be given an opportunity to sit down with the oncologists at Duke and hear first hand their experiences with women like myself and if 12 more weeks is an over kill or the regimen I must continue to endure. I feel God has healed me and placed me on this path so I pray Duke has some answers to the important questions I seek and undoubtedly can potentially be a "game changer".

I find myself anxious but relived to finally have some answers from the pioneers in breast cancer as their access to data, trials, and percentages from all over the country can and will assist me so I can make the correct decisions and close this chapter as I head into surgery and start the beginning to the end of this breast cancer life altering journey.
I feel extraordinarily blessed to say my cancers gone and I'm ready to take all steps to ensure it never returns. My double mastectomy will take place in December as its surreal almost to consider losing both breast and enduring a major surgery. However my sister said it best " I'm not partial to any body part that I can live without, that is trying to kill me". I am human and a woman as it was a difficult decision to have both breasts removed. The reconstructive process takes a full year than an additional year to really know and see how minimal any scars will or will not be.

At this point of my journey I find that simply being rid of my cancer and the prognoses of having a great chance of a full life and no recurrence is incentive and enough and a blessing that all else is simply a means to an end.

I am ready to end chemo treatments and have my immune system fully in tact so I can resume normal activities and participate in my children's lives, attend school functions and return to church. Be able to celebrate the joy of life full speed ahead.

I'm am told by many survivors that once I close this chapter and walk away with my life that I will make life alternating changes and become a bit different.
As I laid in my bed last night watching TV with my 6, 4, and 20 month old holding them I thought I would not want to be anywhere else doing anything else.

I love my life, my children, my husband, my marriage, my family and my friends. I do find myself strengthen, and resolve to help others and take all great things from this journey and place them forward. I am humbled and grateful of my many blessings. I'm sadden by others in their battles that are struggling but inspired they are still fighting.
I have never asked or thought why me, as I would change nothing and have faith and entrust God has always held me.

My life as all life is a precious gift meant to live fully, happily, faithfully, as  christian's , helpfully, kindly and lovingly~

I will continue to pray for all the less fortunate people and for great outcomes~


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Life is not always easy nor is it guaranteed ~ The value of the lessons learned make us stronger and wiser~

Life is not always easy nor is it guaranteed. We are not entitled to anything, as I teach my children hard work leads to self worth and a great appreciation of what you have earned. I am an open book in personality with a great work ethic as I'm open with my children and teach them to trust in the Lord, be honest and kind to others, stand up for your self if need be, work hard, play hard and the sky is the limit as you can achieve any dream and goal in life. Life is a gift and obstacles can and will be placed in our path. Its how we react and diminish those obstacles that make the value of the lessons learned important.

We have had many obstacles some extraordinarily difficult in life that at the time seemed unbearable but as life altering as they where, God was helping place us on the path of a healthy far greater life than previous and removing all the toxic. We crawled and even  clawed at a few low points towards the light and strength of God and I assure you when we arrived at the end of the obstacle it was all well worth it. The lessons have strengthen my marriage and made us steel, enabled us to raise our children in Gods name and to grow into fine adults, contribute to society, help others, and stand tall.


When I received my first diagnosis of breast cancer I went into fight mode and immediately went into mind over matter, and pulled from all my inner strength, determination, pure resolve to come out swinging and not let up until all the cancer was and is completely eliminated and out of my body. The thought has never crossed my mind that even with stage lll I would lose my life or the battle ever! I know deep in my sole that I have much work to do here and babies to raise to pay it forward .
I hear medical workers and physicians say your mental and attitude have much to do with your healing and out come. My oncologist   said to me without chemo, surgery and radiation I had a 90% chance of death. He proceeded to tell me that God gave him the knowledge and ability to treat and heal me as I whole heartily agree! I realize how blessed and what a pure miracle I an given to not only sail through chemo but to have all my cancer, tumor and lymph nodes completely gone this early in chemo. I assure this is a blessing and I plan on not disappointing God, and moving forward after my recovery and helping others as I've said before.

I still have new journeys, treatments and obstacles on my road to a full recovery, but remain steadfast knowing and believing it will continue to be mild and par for the coarse as it has been.
All things are possible through Christ who strengthens me.

I realize we all have our battles and obstacles in our lives and on our personal journeys and I say to you have faith, believe, pull your inner strength, and you too will prevail. Not only will you come through stronger the lessons learned will make you wiser.

God Bless know I'm praying for you all and appreciate your prayers~

Prayers clearly work and God is truly great!

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Everyday is a gift however yesterday was special for me~

Everyday is a gift however yesterday was a very special day. I had the privilege to return to the radiology and breast imaging facility where my journey began. Eight short weeks ago I had several mammograms, a biopsy, and ribbons placed for the surgeon. I had no knowledge of my triple negative breast cancer stage lll status or my road ahead, I just knew it was not good as the ribbons where placed in my breast. I was scared and all alone as my husband was home with the kids because we where told by a GYN doctor the day before that my tumor was a cyst and she felt it was benign and was not cancer. I walked in to have a mammogram with a very false sense of security. The angles that God has placed at this imaging center are truly amazing, as they inspire me. Not only did they realize I had breast cancer they had to inform me of it. The health care workers stayed late on a Friday in spite of there own families to get my biopsy done and sent to pathology ASAP. They are the most caring and compassionate women I am blessed to of met. They are so positive and enabled me to have hope, faith and strength to begin my journey in what feels like years ago.
I cant imagine walking in there shoes as they see woman daily sadly as cancer shows and they give strength and  hope to others like me.

I was able to have a repeat ultrasound and share in my incredible news (nothing short of a miracle) yesterday with these amazing ladies as it showed NO CANCER in my breast or lymph nodes anywhere after only three chemo treatments! I was elated and so glad to of shared the wonderful news with these special ladies as they make such a difference in not only my life but so many others.

My cancer is gone as I am victorious early in my battle. My pure inner strength, resolve, determination, God's strength, all the prayers and angels behind me helping me come out swinging has paid off. I now must finish this battle and sustain my endurance and health as I still have a recovery road ahead.
I must continue  chemo therapy as 21st century medicine is not full proof and we have no data or percentage rates "If I stopped chemo now and headed for surgery". Any microscopic cancer cells that may be in my blood or body must be killed by chemo. I will finish my last "difficult drug regime" tomorrow and start my less difficult regimen for 12 straight weeks. I have come so far I will not risk a recurrence due to a unseen cancer cells because I ended chemo to early. I will finish this phase of my recovery and seal my cancers fate.
I am stead fast in my decision to have a double mastectomy even tho I'm now a candidate for a lesser surgery (a lumpectomy). My chances of any recurrence are 30% if I chose a lumpectomy. My percentages of any cancer recurrence after my double mastectomy is less than 1& 1/2 % over my lifetime so was a very easy decision for myself and family. I'm not partial to anything on my body I can live without that could potentially kill me.

I'm only faced challenges I will continue to concur as I know the blessings are and will continue to carry me through. I will be given benadryl with my new chemo meds as it makes me very sleepy. The silver lining is the meds are easier to endure and some women even report their hair growing  back as they are on the weekly regime. The next 12 weeks will assist in my recovery to combat any microscopic cells. The mastectomy alleviates the recurrence with radiation. The reconstruction side of it begins at mastectomy however does require additional surgery and will be completed within 9-12 months, as it requires some time to complete.

I am ready to sustain, endure and finish what cancer started as I'm renewed and up for the remainder of this chapter and journey in my life. For me personality cancer has made me stronger not only in spirit, emotionally and in my faith I see very clearly what I had not before.
I continue to "hold my own" with my blood counts and my overall  health on chemo drugs.
Please continue to pray my organs, and blood counts remain good and over all health on chemo so I can enter surgery (end of December) healthy and finish chemo.

I was able to attend www.1in9.com  breast cancer charity last night and meet the remarkable founder Stephanie who herself and team do Gods work and help so many with breast cancer! What a inspiration and blessing to see the gifts and talents and extraordinary ability to help so many in need!
We had an old friend whom its been far to long (five years) since we have seen her come out and share laughs with us, I enjoyed catching up with last night as well.


We all know how pray works, so please continue as I'm a reminded of Gods will and grace everyday!


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