Thursday, September 17, 2015

I feel passionately for any task I choose, or is placed in my life I can and will achieve, and conquer all. Jesus said to him, “‘If you can’! All things are possible for one who believes.”


I have always been fiercely independent, a self motivator, strong willed, outgoing, as I don't know a stranger. I do not like boundaries or limitations set, or to be told "no" you cant. As I feel passionately for any task I choose, or is placed in my life I can and will achieve, and conquer all. Jesus said to him, “‘If you can’! All things are possible for one who believes.”

I graduated high school a year ahead of myself, I turned seventeen in April and graduated in May a month later. This placed me on my path that inevitability led me to become the wife, mother,my life, and person I am today.I moved out of my parents home at seventeen, rented an apartment, waited tables, paid my own bills,  started nursing school and graduated when I was twenty years old. My childhood was wonderful and happy, and my parents are responsible for helping me achieve my goals and dreams. My moving out so young was never a reflection on my childhood, it was a reflection of my independence. In some ways I was very mature in maintaining good grades, a job, and balancing bills and adult life. In other ways reflecting back I was so young to be on my own, but God was always guiding me.
I graduated as a  nurse by the age of twenty. I took a job at a welfare medicaid hospital and took care of very young many children themselves pregnant, scared girls. Many who found themselves in less than desirable situations, as I always treated them with compassion and gave my all to them. That short year I worked for that hospital I grew by leaps and bounds, and had my eyes opened to life's unforeseen events. It gave me strength, and a completely different perspective in life.
I was offered a nursing job in Orlando Florida, as it was three hours from my parents and family. I moved and it lead me to my husband as I met him at the young age of twenty one. At that age, we have been extremely blessed to of grown together, be best friends ,given five healthy, smart kids whom will enhance society, and we are a strong family twenty one years later. As all my experiences in my life, both negative and positive have set the platform for not only myself but my children as a part of who we are today.

When I was diagnosed with stage 3C TNBC breast cancer it was my perspective to be merely a bump in the road. I knew in my soul it would not take my amazing life from me or my family, as it is not my time. I was determined to fight my hardest with all I had to eliminate it, get it off my plate, restore my health, and return to normalcy. I was going to endure the minimal, push through, do well in all treatments,and not let any aspect of cancer steal my time with my family or my happiness. I achieved a complete PCR (no cancer found) in one short year and was triumphant. I have an excellent prognosis and chose to never look back. I only carry strength, positive lessons, and true blessing in all I have met forward with me. 

I had a woman say to me "How can you and others say you kicked cancers ass when it could come back?" 
Everyday you are cancer free and healthy you have kicked it's ass! 
We have no control in life's unforeseen events! You can be in a car accident or any other freak accident at any moment. With cancer I had the ability to see it coming. I was blessed to be given the time to fight and an opportunity to defeat it. I do not and will never live my life in the "what ifs"! Its a ridiculous waist of time and energy. I live everyday with a positive mindset and am in AWE of all my blessing. I'm truly blown away by the miracles I and my family have been given in my health being restored. The only control we have is how we treat others and how we embrace life and live it! We have the gift of prayer and Gods strength. 

 Any negative or pessimistic behavior or attitudes, I don't entertain. I pray about patience to step back and consider others negativity or them placing unnecessary fear/ doubt in others as it is due to their own personal fear. I try to consider I know nothing of their fear, life, or trials.
I simply pray for them and all others.

Everyday morning I walk out on my deck to let my dog out, I smell the fresh air and consider all my silver linings and smile! Life is such a gift and amazing journey as I'm a very blessed.

The cracks in my children last year from my treatment and battle with breast cancer have all diminished. My older sons are excelling in school, sports, jobs, and life. My two little ones are stead fast and doing well in elementary and will tell you "Mommy's cancer is gone". My toddler is secure in my hugs and guidance.
The strength my children gained and lessons from my battle will never be forgotten, just used for goodness. As my oldest looked at me on Mothers Day and said "Mom you are here and cancer free this year, what a gift"  My children have returned to normalcy, as we all have Thanks be to God.

I am traveling, playing with my kids in Disney World, attending concerts, enjoying watching them grow and accomplish their goals bringing them closer to their dreams. I do not take a moment of my life for granted and live it fully everyday!

I have pure faith and take comfort in knowing many prevail and win the battle against breast cancer as it is a very survivable disease. God is always with us and guiding us in all we do!

Your positive mindset and attitude is contagious and enhances both yours and others lives! 

God Bless! 




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