I will not acknowledge "what if's" nor will I entertain fear~

I have maintained a sense of peace and well being since this journey started three short weeks ago.
I had a brief moment of uncertainty in the beginning of my diagonals due to fear of the unknown.
I have learned more in three short weeks about breast cancer as I feel I have been educated in a year long coarse and have much more to still learn. Once I arrived with a full insight to this disease I have won every battle through my inner strength and complete resolve. The uplifting prayers by all and God whom is carrying me and is my best ally I have known to my core I will be cancer free and will be enabled to help others the rest of my long life.


I have been truly amazed by all the "angels among us" and great people I have the privilege of meeting or knowing they pray for myself and family along this remarkable journey.
I received a call from dust and mop and maid service willing to donate a monthly cleaning for my home during chemo. I'm told often this blog inspires people as this is the entire reason I write it, and I pray it helps others. However its the compassion and caring of all people, charities ,medical workers, churches, neighbors, friends and family that inspire me!

I have had so many miracles and silver linings bestowed on my self and family, I find myself saying "God I understand this journey is your will for me to share and help others" and I will not disappoint you!

My new challenge in front of me is for mild side effects  chemo,  so I'm able to continue normalcy and be a mother.
My chemo regimen to shrink and elevate my tumor and cancer. I have felt peace as I knew in my soul the BRAC 1 & 2 would be negative and IS! As I know God put my surgeon and oncologist in my path to heal me and have me (NED) no evidence of disease and cancer free in January at my time of surgery!

My children who rally around me and step into big shoes, and my husband who continues to hold down a challenging career and still step into my shoes, move me and I have no words other than I'm so blessed for my family!

I'm taking my children to a charity family counselor today who for small donations talk to my kids about moms cancer, give them insight, comfort and security.
The counselors have an amazing charity through Rex hospital called Kids Can that feeds families dinner and splits kids up in age appropriate groups so the too know others their age have parents or family members that are effected by cancer and can share similar experiences!

My goal is to continue normalcy on my road to recovery as my children have worked so hard to in their lives to maintain A, B honor roll, make the football team, learn to read. I am so proud of my husband and children as I too see them "paying it forward" and helping others!
My children will continue to climb toward their goals in life and in the school year and not falter as their mom climbs toward a full recovery!

Please continue to pray for mild side effects of chemo, and chemo wiping out my disease.
Please pray for the less fortunate people as well.

God Bless and I hope your day is full of silver linings

If you are able to help my families medical  expensiveness

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I will relish in all great things and blessings!

Yesterday (Monday) was a wonderful day! Not only and I feeling energetic after chemo I received some very goods news I consider a game changer! I also had the privilege in meeting the director of 1 in 9 charity I will talk about in detail.


I received a call telling me my BRCA 1 and 2 appear to be negative. It seems I carry NO gene mutation. This is a true blessing and significant. It means my daughters nor sons sister or niece carry the BRAC gene and will not be at further risk for cancer or their children (my grand children) some day. It also means at my time of surgery (double mastectomy) I will not have my ovaries nor tubes removed!
I did however test for Variants of Uncertain Significance (VUS). This changes nothing above as I'm in only the 15% of breast cancer patients that test for this. What it means to me is once I'm whole and healed I will help researchers and pharmaceutical companies with my DNA help further under stand triple negative and VUS so we can help others with this disease. Once I have a better understanding after my genetics class I will update further.
Currently I will celebrate being considered BRAC 1 & 2 negative!

I have maintained Gods guidance through this entire journey, and my need to reach out and help others! I have a responsibility and am driven to do so in all ways possible.

I had the privilege of meeting the director of www.1in9.com yesterday. 1 in 9 is a breast cancer charity that provides  meals and transportation for women whom do not own cars and would for go treatment if not for this charity.
It provides grocery's, diapers, and medical expensive s so family's can get proper treatment to become cancer free.
I was taken by the founders remark in the paper "God wants us to use our experience to help others". I could not agree more.
I will be attending their Pink Tie Gala April 2015! I will be cancer free and have completed all my treatments as of March 2015 so I will have a reason to celebrate my 42nd birthday in April cancer free at this Gala! 

I have now WON so many battles and will continue to do so! 

I am greatly optimistic and feel chemo will continue to be a road non to difficult treatment journey as I am able to have normalcy with minimal down time so far! I expect to be able to be a wife and mother on my road to recovery and through treatment as "I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me!

Prayers we need are my chemo is shrinking my tumor and killing my cancer! In a few weeks that my tumor lacks and is smaller in size!

Please consider if you are able to help and please keep us lifted in prayer!

God Bless!


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Feeling good today after chemo Friday! I will not falter! I will beat cancer!

I feel stead fast on my journey. I have not a moment of weakness only resolve to not only beat cancer but to help others on their journeys not falter but to pay it forward the rest of my long life! I choose life and to live it to the fullest!


I'm having a wonderful day with my children and am gearing up for chemo round #2 next week.

Anxiously awaiting my BRCA gene test result this week but have complete faith in the Lord!

I'm adding some pictures and will update my blog with the test results!

Remember Please do your breast exams!
Do it tonight!


God Bless

Heather

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My blog is to give strength and hope to others and I'm a tool in doing so

I received a phone call from church today telling me in on their prayer list and a member shared this blog.

I'm told an older member who doesn't use a computer took special notice of my journey and would like to call me! I'm anxiously awaiting the call.

I have mentioned how in awe and humbled I am to know strangers who are new found friends and allies are praying for myself and my family.

I'm not a writer nor has it ever been my strong suit so when I started this blog I prayed to uplift and help others so it flows from my heart and I feel a higher power!

Cancer nor any other life's challenges by no means should have you falter. It gives me strength and reserve to know God is caring me through and all my new found angels among us and allies are enabling me through prayer, meal deliveries, and heath care providers to heal and recover to fight to become cancer free!

Our world is full of such amazing, selfless, generous people I have no words other than God Bless you!

My chemo 1st dose was Friday as I feel better today. Was able to move around and dress my girls today as I'm grateful for a little energy.
My husband has been filling my "big shoes" for him my soul mate I love more than life itself!

The prayers I need is for a negative BRCA gene this week
And by mid August tumor shrinkage so we know I'm on the correct drugs in chemo and its KILLING my cancer!


If you can help please either (medical and prescription bills link below)


God Bless You!

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The Pro's completely out weigh the Con's however a few bumps Ive already rolled over

  My first chemo started yesterday (Friday) as I hear many stories of how is builds or the effects on others as I appreciate them all we are simply so different in a variety of ways
I've never been a medicine girls so an occasional Tylenol  is what I'm accustomed to  now a new medicine bag not sure how I will do.
My chemo was given with anti nausea drugs
I'm now home and having mild side effects
My mouth tastes different and my tummy upset I can't wait for my nausea pills at bed and in the morning so hoping my tummy feels better

My port is healing and feels better every day

The chemo is not bad and doesn't hurt at all you sit in a recliner and visit and talk. It's simply the after effects I can't be sure of yet
I appreciate I feel some mild side effects so so as it makes me believe it's working very well and killing my cancer.
My husband was able to adjust my meds it turn has settled my stomach and got me out of bed. I'm a bit loopy not too much. 

My nurse and oncologist staff are amazing with all they are not only very special people they are angels in this fight. I'm completely in awe how caring they are, their patience to help in all aspects and angles among us!
My nurse has five kids of her own and selflessly gives I just couldn't of asked for better health care providers in this journey to be cancer free  she enables me to continue to be a Mommy.
My physicians assistant another angel she is a mom too, who is  so caring and passionate in my fight and others fighting! I'm completely impressed the staff that makes my kids puppets by hand. My PA that gets me a grocery card to help with food and prescriptions.

Their are so many allies I have in this fight I have no doubt I will be cancer free before Christmas.
I'm very optimist I'm

on the correct path and my chemo will work as Ive always maintained that!
My hubby (Rob) who has turned into my home nurse is helps manage my side effects and gets me through. My kids are amazing as they are pulling together too.

I hope my next chemo I feel a bit less sick however the chemo is working (so it is what it is)

I am so blessed for neighbors and new found friends that drop off meals and help with our kids!

God Bless you all!

Please keep praying for a negative BRCA

Please pray the chemo shrinks my tumor soon


If you are able to help with my medical and precipitations the link below


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My breast cancer will not get in the way!

It's only been two short weeks ago but amazes me how much I've grown
New medical terms and procedures by no means have made me weak. I take from this journey knowledge and strength I fully intend on killing this beast I hope to help others find their inner strength and a little peace

I've decided to go back to nursing in a few years once I'm fully recovered and when our youngest starts school as my mind will never forget this journey I hope to inspire others who may not be as strong that breast cancer by no means says their journey is done

I watch my children run and play and realize I choose to not let cancer get in my way! 

I met another team of angels among us today selfless and caring that got me through a difficult procedure 

I had a different port put in as it's a power infusion port. The difference is my port allows not only chemo but infusions and blood draws as well. (Have I mention it's purple)
My veins have given out  after two short weeks of tests and scans so six attempts from those kind and compassionate angels we could not start an IV, so this morning we where on to plan B
I went in to surgery sober and wide awake had lidocaine in my neck so we could insert  my port. Another battle won no matter how we arrived its all lining up and Gods on my side! 

Chemo tomorrow morning begins as I celebrate killing this monster within!!

My neck is only a little bit sore and I will heal very quickly within a week or so and my new found port is a huge relief

I will update after chemo and God bless you all I truly amazes by your kind thoughts and calls!

Please keep the prayers coming our way as we need a negative Brca test and a great response to chemo!

God bless you all and if you can help with my medical bills and prescriptions

My account link is below

Www.gofundme.com/I-will-beat-cancer

I will update tomorrow night after my 1st chemo treatment

Every battle won I celebrate

I have been through two MRI 's, surgical ribbons placed under my skin,
Pet Scans, heart muga test, blood test biopsies,  4 ultrasounds, seven IV's
And countless needle sticks all in the past week!
I look like a pin cousin battered and bruised but none of this matters as it's all been good news!
Not that cancer is good at all I'm just excited it's all lining up  to watch my cancer fall!
I attend to knock it out of my body till it's non existent at all

The  Brest MRI started it all my cancers only on the right side
That's good news considering it has not spread to my left
Also great for radiation later down the line as it keeps my heart out of the way

Then there was my Pet scan a radiative dye where I couldn't hug my children for 24 hours and could only send their daddy when listening to cries
No cancer in any organs only in my breast and a few lymph nodes only

Muga test to study my heat a large gage IV that was painful is used to extract red blood cells mix with a dye then return them to my body and study my heart
All looks great

Another MRI of my brain was scanned was difficult to not feel too confined in a tube with a helmet over your head  by My husband stood and stretch so he could hold one hand and that's how I got through
Again all look great

I have a port surgically put in place Thursday under my skin
For the duration of the chemo through December
I'm told it feels like a rock under my skin

Chemo starts Friday as I'm given many drugs handfuls to take home and shots to give myself
And bags full of pills I must take through it all
I can't wait to start the chemo so I can KILL IT ALL!

This new life style is only teporary it's an incovience but
Mandatory I pray for patience as Im always busy I need to rest more so my healing will be plenty

I have shaved my head as I am proactive will not sit by and watch it all fall out
As I do not allow cancer to upset me
I'm told in my cancer learn all about me class I will be fatigue and sick
However I'm determined to be a good mother reguardles of it

My co pays and finances are bleak but I refuse to worry
As God has always kept us on our feet

I chose to be cancer free in December at the time of my mastectomy
I have half the battle won and am ready to fight cancer doesn't have a chance
Now that I have this insight

My dream team of oncologist, nurses, surgeon,
And medical personal have God guiding them and we will prevail!

Thanks to my my, friends both old and new,
Neighbors and coworkers and strangers too

You enable us to fight and win this battle too!

Our medical account if you or someone you know is able to help is

www.gofundme.com/I-will-beat-cancer