I am feeling remarkably well only two weeks after my bilateral mastectomy and health is restored~

Jeremiah 29:11. 
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Once again when you want to hear God laugh "Tell him your plans"

I am feeling remarkably well only two weeks after my bilateral mastectomy. I am acclimating to my expanders and chest muscle stretching. I have no pain and no discomfort. I am healing quickly and enjoying the holidays with the kids cancer free. My health is restored, energy and stamina has returned  to full strength with only few lifting restrictions. 


After achieving a PCR (no residual cancer) my prognosis is excellent and superior as all expect me to be considered completely cured in 3 years.

Here is where I once again have arrived at a fork in the coarse in my final treatment plan. God has always supplied my answers as I know he will do so again as I am collecting facts before making a decision.

My radiologist told us we did not need the original 33 radiation treatments as originally thought due to my PCR no cancer I required no radiation. 
I then received a call from him yesterday and was told due to my original PET scan before I started chemo he changed his mind and said he wants me to receive radiation. However he wants me to speak with my oncologist and let him be my deciding factor.

Here are the facts~ I am healed and cancer free with an excellent prognosis~
I am healthy~
Radiation can cause lymphedema (swelling that is permanent)
Radiation effects last a life time~
Radiation will scar my bottom and top lungs~
Radiation causes shortness of breath and extreme fatigue~
Radiation will make my ribs fragile~
All tho rare can cause a second cancer~
It can effect the heart~
It scars and leads to reconstruction failure~

The few studies conducted on the achievement of PCR are a complete 50/50 split~ Half oncologist and radiation physicians say have it and the other half say completely unnecessary do not.

Do I benefit or does the risk out weigh the benefit?
Do I compromise my good health and healing heart?

I will sit down with my oncologist in a few weeks and weigh the percentages and have my questions answered. I have faith and no doubt God will then guide me to the correct decision. 
If I decide to have the treatment I also have faith I will have minimal to no side effects and do very well.

I sit here remarkably healthy, cancer free, enjoying my family and the holidays full of happiness and grateful for my wonderful blessed life! 

I trust all questions will be answered.  I will turn in the direction God's will takes me and all will work out perfectly!

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving and enjoyed family.

God Bless! Please keep praying as we all know prays are answered~

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When I reflect on this year as the holidays are here and a little brighter, I praise God as I am cancer free and healthy as its a pure gift! I beat TNBC

When I reflect on this year as the holidays are here and we are celebrating, I am completely appreciative and relish in the miracles I have been bestowed.

Its nothing short of miraculous  for me to really grasp how far physically, and the health crisis I have over come is such a short time. To say its been a whirlwind is not effective in describing my experiences with TNBC.

I sit and reiterate as its beyond grasp

I was on vacation over July 4th enjoying my family and children feeling remarkably healthy to arrive home, scratch my ribs in the middle of the night only to graze a large tumor. I sat straight up, slapped my husbands arm and said "wake up and feel this". The next day I was visiting an OB/GYN whom examined me and said "this is a cyst and will be benign", however its time for your annual mammogram so we will have it ordered.

That Friday I walked in with a complete false sense of security and alone as in her opinion by feel it was benign. I endured three mammograms that day as I had a large tumor you could palpitate but dangerously did not show on any mammogram. Lesson number 1 of the next million to come.
I was then given an ultrasound and upon completion the radiologist walked in and said I am now doing a biopsy.
At this point my mind was spinning, however I still had hope and thought for certain the biopsy would show all benign and false scare. As the radiologist injected very small titanium ribbons and said " they are for the surgeon" I knew then what she could see and I did not need to wait for lab results on Monday.

When we where given the results, all we where told is its breast cancer and you need to see a surgeon. Shamefully I knew nothing about breast cancer and this new world I was entering.

When I sat down with my surgeon she said you have triple negative breast cancer and are only among 15% of all breast cancers. Its rare, its very aggressive, and surgery will come late in the treatment process as I need you to go to an oncologist and receive chemo as the first part of your long road of treatments.

I was then given a PET scan, heart mugga, MRI, breast MRI, brain scan, a surgical port placed  and countless blood test to be granted the all clear to begin chemo treatments. My treatment coarse was laid out and consisted on 4 AC very taxing chemo treatments then 12 weekly chemo treatments of different drugs.

As we all know I had a complete clinical response after only 2 treatments and upon ultrasound no cancer detected. I completed 35% of my chemo treatments and was an advocate for my own health,  Due to no cancer found, the heart and health issues initiated by chemo the bad now out weighed the good as God cured me and chemo would end. I was not going to endure the toxic effects because I was simply protocol and categorized. We are all unique as are all responses to treatment and we are in desperate need of individual treatment plans. We also need to have those plans adjusted according to treatment response.

I had a bilateral mastectomy one week ago, as it was the best health decision I've ever made. I woke up with a complete pathological response and no cancer or residual cancer found. This has now catapulted my prognosis from good to excellence. Its important to know many survive breast cancer!

The exspanders are a perplexing strange feelings I acclimate and adjust to daily as they remain approximately 1 year and I have several fluid (stretching of the muscle) over the holidays. Once that occurs I will have radiation (the easy part) 5 days a week for 6 weeks.


I will be monitored every few months for the next 3 years but in light of achieving a CPR (no cancer) I have the luxury of no worry every test result awaited.

The crippling financial medical bills, copay's and deductibles, cant and wont come close to minimizing my miracles! As God will provide and I have faith.

I do not worry as life is priceless and the holidays are brighter this year!

I sit here one week out of my major surgery requiring no pain medication, feeling energetic with minimal discomfort.

My daughters who patiently waited for dance classes while mom was sick and receiving treatment, where able to attend their 1st class this morning! As I will dance in the isle at their recital in June. As their mom is determined to celebrate every day and never forget the great achievements and miracles as how wonderful God is.

I will return to normalcy, put my house back in order and help my children chase their dreams. We will play as a family, love, laugh, never take for granted, help all we meet, thank God as the glory is his.

It is amazing to consider I was TNBC stage lllC mid July and in 4 short months am cancer free!

As God has cured me I will now help others and try my best to proceed on his path and fulfill what his will and vision is for me.

We plan of visiting Boone NC at Christmas and taking the kids tubing. Having Thanksgiving at home as my healing continues, as I find myself overly excited about putting up our tree and listening to the kids play.

I will dance at my children's weddings, and cry at their graduations. I will hold their hands and cheer at their games as life is such a rewarding blessing, as I have been given more than I could ever ask. A pure gift!

Patience is not my strong suite but funny the many lessons learned I appreciate and benefit from acquiring a little more lately.

The amazing people, friends, strangers who have become friends, family and church family have pulled me through given me strength and courage and always remind me of how wonderful life is.

The prayers have been answered and I look forward to many fun journeys next year. I look to great achievements accomplished, and many more silver linings to shine.

God Bless and Happy Thanksgiving as I hope your tables are full of food, family ,love,  fellowship,and Gods blessings!


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With all the prayers that rattled heaven you have help enable me to WIN THIS WAR ON BREAST CANCER AS WE HAVE DEFEATED IT!

I have never believed in a mere coincidence as instances happen for a reason~

I was not given a preference between hospitals as its simply who has OR time and can accommodate both of my surgeons schedules.

I was so blessed to have my bilateral mastectomy at Rex as not only did I receive excellent care, the medical staff go above and beyond and are very special angels among us.

My next phase in this  journey started last Friday as I had my pre-op at Rex and had the privilege to sit down with one of the most brilliant anesthesiologist I have ever met. I had general anesthesia seven years prior and was only under twenty minutes. I had a severe allergic reaction that lasted two days.
This surgery took four and a half hours and my anesthesiologist administered "opioid sparring non narcotic anesthesia" and has only been done in about 3-5% of most patients.
I did excellent, as I woke up fully awake (no hang over effect or nausea) and was in my complete frame of mind , a pure relief and blessing.

Thursday we arrived at 10 am and I had my dye injected behind my nipple around 1 pm. This procedure is only a very quick (few seconds) sting and is over. My surgeon whom I'm eternally grateful did not remove my sentinel lymph node and do a dissection at all. This is due to her excellent knowledge and skill. A small area was sent to pathology while I was under and they where able to see 5 lymph nodes ALL CLEAR NO CANCER~
So she spared me any further, as God is great and yet another miracle rushed into that OR as my prognoses is excellent and God has healed me.
My reconstruction surgeon is remarkable as well and has started what will take a year, as I have faith the end result will be good as he is what I consider the best in reconstruction.

My surgery was due to start at 2:30 and much later Rob and my Mother where given an update as to they where just finishing on one side and now moving to the other. Rob did the math and that doubt crept in as he felt this may indicate many lymph nodes removed and cancer found. My mother said she felt the connection and knew there was no cancer and surgery simply was taking a long time and may not of started on time.
I would not of traded them as it was far easier to be asleep than to sit and wait. I am told my surgeon walked out looked at them and "high five" them and said no caner found and all clear!

When I woke up and was in recovery around 9 pm there was no room available, we where fully aware speaking to the nurses what a full miracle and all the blessings I have been given. Its simply remarkable and Gods grace as I went from triple negative stage lllc mid July to 4 months later cancer free!

When we where taken to my room late we had many visits from nurses telling us this is why they chose nursing and medicine for the silver linings and healing cases like me.

I woke up and truly felt like I hit the lottery and that my cheer section, all the prayers that where sent up where answered!

I was sent home and currently have tubes attached to plastic shaped containers the size of your palms on each side of my body. I have what looks like a corset that remains on and is wrapped around my breast and ribs. I am maintaining   the pain as its a very small price to pay and only lasts a short time. My tubes are expected to be removed Tuesday as everyday I am healing. I have plenty of feeling and sensation on my skin.

The hardest part of this journey is now behind me as not only did I concur chemo, now major surgery all I must do is heal and sail through radiation as I'm told is the easiest part of treatment.

Its the best gift to be able to say "I'm cancer free and no longer have breast cancer"

With all the prayers that rattled heaven you have not only helped carry me through this ordeal you have also enabled me to WIN THIS WAR ON BREAST CANCER AS WE HAVE DEFEATED IT!

My treatments with radiation and more surgery will last into late next year, however are truly far less taxing and easier as the difficult parts of treatment are over.

My parents are here as I could not heal without them. Between my Dad and Mom taking care of the kids and Robs endless laundry to the hugs and their emotional wisdom I'm a very blessed lady.

My words of gratitude are not enough as I'm truly blessed, humbled, and so fortunate to have you praying for me you have helped assist in my children having a healthy mother. God Bless you all from the bottom of our hearts!

Know I will heal everyday and get stronger, I can drive in 2 weeks and lift Maxson in 4. My support team are filling in great as my kids are getting plenty of hugs.

The holidays this year are cause for celebration and I will forever have my perspective changed in life and only see all the silver linings~

I will pay it forward and have big plans and ideas how to help others as I will always remember all that have helped me!

Know your mental strength is half the battle and faith will carry you if life's challenges and you to will prevail~

God Bless

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When breast cancer knocked on my door with its "A game" I truly believe not only was it ill equipped it had not done any research on its opponent.

When breast cancer knocked on my door with its "A game" I truly believe not only was it ill equipped  it had not done any research on its opponent.

I have many say to me "I cant do it" or I would of just quit and thrown in the towel.

Here is what I say, Absolutely not, as when you are faced with any adversity in life your inner strength and fight bubbles to the surface and I believe you would be surprised how strong you really are!

We all have our strengths and weakness and for some it takes a challenge to bring out their strength. Just because you may not of needed to use it does not mean its not there and doesn't exist.

I have had a fight and resolve my entire life, as I have faced death my third time now. Not only am I here for a purpose I'm determined to not take a moment for granted and to help others as God intends for us to do.

I have a full complete support system as "team Fox" is a state of the art very efficient machine as we have had years in the making to perfect. I'm profoundly proud of my husband and children! When you add family, church family, friends and God its full proof.

When people ask me why I'm choosing a double mastectomy in light of no evidence of cancer its very simple.
I have been a rule bender my entire life and always up for the gamble if I thought the odds where in my favor. This is the first time I have ever not been willing to play the odds in spite of them in my favor. I wont gamble with something I'm not willing or prepared to lose, so the decision was a very easy one to make.

I will be meeting my radiologist Friday and then the hospital for all my pre-op admittance test. Surreal as my surgery is next Thursday November 13th the day after my father and sons 16th birthday. The anticipation is not fear, its only my wanting it to be over so my healing with Godspeed can start. I am ready to enjoy the holidays and pick up my toddler again.

I am told no driving for two weeks and no picking up my kids for four weeks. My parents are coming for a long visit as I'm very blessed! They will be a great help with sustaining normalcy and add lots of hugs and love to the kids while I heal.

As for my treatment it requires stamina as it is a process, however I have already accomplished great achievements with Gods grace.

I will start radiation in January for six straight weeks at five days a week and have two additional surgery's late next year. I will be closely monitored for the next 3 years and have complete faith I will be considered cured in five years! I'm am completely steadfast in my resolve to be a survivor, live a long life and share Gods blessings!

Please pray for my pathological report to come back clear and no evidence of cancer hiding in my lymph nodes! Please know many women have twenty plus lymph nodes removed due to microscopic cells detected and are twenty plus year survivors too! This is the entire point of the surgery to look and remove any lingering cells. Please also pray for my swift recovery.

I will report and update after surgery as it takes several days for the path report to come it.

God bless

Prayers are working!!

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Simple smiles and few words of kindness and encouragement travel quickly, spread and are not only contagious but also very meaningful in others lives~

Life uncertainties and unforeseeable events is what makes life so fragile but also everyday a precious gift we should enjoy.

Simple smiles and few words of kindness and encouragement travel quickly, spread and are not only contagious but also very meaningful in others lives.

When I have a bad day I stop to consider my great blessings and many others not so fortunate as it changes my perspective and out look very quickly.
It is about what I can learn for my experiences, trials, lessons, blessings, and gather strength and knowledge so I can pass it to my children and share it to help others.

When I consider my major surgery a few short weeks away I have no fear as I realize with no visible cancer I'm one of the lucky ones! God has blessed me so I can have my health restored to enable me to pay it forward , grab and share life's silver linings everyday.

I have been told to consider the impact of not driving for two weeks, or not picking up my toddler four to six weeks. I have been told to consider the pathological report after surgery may find a few microscopic cells in my lymph nodes and I may have several removed. I have also been told to  consider not only losing all feeling in my chest for a life time but also the visual scars and looking completely different in a mirror.

For me the double mastectomy will be the less taxing part of my entire road to recovery in winning and defeating breast cancer.

Here is what I consider to be my reality and what I feel

The double mastectomy significantly reduces my percentage to ever have any re occurrence and greatly assist me in my achieving being cured in three to five years. As does the radiation after surgery.

I am very blessed to have such a fundamental support system with friends and family coming to stay so they can drive my children to car pools and help with our everyday lives.

I have also not only considered but know down to my core that not only has God healed me this far he will continue to do so. I believe I will wake up from surgery with a clear pathological report and be a survivor.
Many woman have many lymph nodes removed and are twenty year plus survivors, thus is why you have the surgery.

As far as losing sensation I could care less as the ultimate goal is to live a long full life and scars are such a minimal  price the trade off and the end result of good health is far greater, I am truly steadfast in my decisions in treatment.

I will heal in God speed and am ready to have my surgery and shore up the next phase in treatment to follow by radiation. The aspect of ending treatment by late January, early February and only have a few minor surgeries later next year is the goal I am aiming to achieve an excellent prognosis, as it has been my game plan all along.

I have come so remarkably far and achieved so much and with Gods blessings am entering surgery with no detectable cancer! That is what I consider to be important! I can honestly careless about looks or lack of feeling, as it is completely irrelevant in the larger scope of it all.

My life is full of love, happiness, hope, friendship, family and driven by faith!

Please keep myself and family in your prayers as my surgery is November 13th

God Bless

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It is almost surreal to consider I will be under going major surgery in a few short weeks as I feel healthy~

It is almost surreal to consider I will be under going major surgery in a few short weeks. Do not get me wrong as I am not parochial to any body part I can live with out that has potential to be life threatening.
It was an easy decision to have a double mastectomy to substantially decrease my percentage of recurrence to breast cancer.

It is difficult to wrap my mind around the next phase as I feel healthy and have complete faith I'm cancer free. Losing my breasts, acclimating to the new picture in the mirror, enduring anesthesia (I do not do well sedated) the pain and lack of using my arms, the inability to pick up my children, complete change in normalcy in our lives and routine is all short term.
I simply can not play the odds, roll the dice because I am not willing to rick or lose what is such a precious gift.

I remain strong and truly believe God will help in my healing quickly and for me to wake up cancer free from surgery. I had someone say to me "God healed you and you where cancer free after two chemo treatments so why not trust you are healed and no surgery just walk away"
I feel God has also given us wisdom and knowledge, access to 21st medicine, the ability and gifts of the surgeons and physicians to save lives that I'm on the correct path and have made proper decisions to remain healthy.

I was by far the most difficult decision I have ever arrived at to take a pure leap of faith and close the chemo therapy chapter as I am now healing and so is my heart damage from chemo. I have an occasional shortness of breath but am getting stronger daily. My reminders are no hair, however wigs are great. The strange thing is I just recently lost my eye lashes three weeks after chemo ended. It is not the vanity aspect it is the function of them to keep dust and such out so my eyes water and are sensitive. The silver lining is the "brows and lashes" grow back quickly.

Once a chapter in treatment ends the anticipation of the next phase and the not knowing is upon me I pray and my faith shines through as I will not entertain fear, negatives, and what if's. God has not only healed and cured me, he has held me, guided me and helped me arrive at all correct decisions I have made on my path to a full recovery.

I am a very energetic, organized Mother of five whom is accustomed to a very busy life and schedule.
Now that I'm headed to surgery and the realization on my recover period and limitations are close upon me, life has given me above what my full schedule is normally.
A friend said to me between my husband and I we are giving our guardian angels a run.

Here are my silver linings as there are many~

My husband was not injured when his car was totaled last week being hit at highway speed by another driver. That driver was not injured either.

I was able to attend Sunday school with Maxson last week.

I am healing daily and God is giving me the stamina and endurance to achieve and meet my family s needs before my pending surgery.

My children are healthy!

We have an abundance of family, friends and neighbors, an amazing church family, and are in excellent company.

Please consider Sunday October 26th having lunch or watching the Carolina / Sea Hawks game at Rudino's
High House Cary~ Take out a pizza if you are unable to dine in

10% of the proceeds (food not alcohol)  from 1-5 pm help assist my medical fund to pay for surgery. I will has have out of pocket and co insurance start over yet again in January as I have radiation treatments and additional surgeries~

Please pray for a successful, cancer free surgery and for God speed in my healing

God Bless

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It is very important for me to follow all signs, make the best choices in light of all the facts and circumstances, be an advocate for my own health~

It is very important for me to follow all signs, make the best choices in light of all the facts and circumstances, be an advocate for my own health, treatments, and care. A physicians egos, demeanor, aggression and temper tantrums simply are not retaliative nor important and I refuse to be bullied or swayed. I will not be a "protocol" and generally grouped with all to please anyone. When the bad out weighs any benefit its time to move on to the next chapter.

The road turns, constantly changes, and needs to be fine tuned as my journey and medical healing regimen is completely unique to me as is others on the journeys. I have met  many who are true heroes and inspirations as they battle stage IV, are not responding to chemo, are children and babies, all fighting and not losing their personal resolve or faith. God too has a plan for them as he does for us all.

My port was removed on Thursday and  was a wright of passage and a well earned achievement. It was a chapter ending as I know God healed my cancer early on and I am ready for my upcoming surgery. I fully believe my next chapter will be full of bright silver linings and blessing with many wonderful people and  healing to come.

I was humbled to experience the Kyle Busch foundations generosity the organization contributes to help women with breast cancer in need. His wife Samantha is an amazing soul that pours time and energy into her busy life to pay it forward and help so many less fortunate with breast cancer.
Pretty in Pink foundation tirelessly works and volunteers to connect with such organizations both big and small to help so many with breast cancer.

I was able to meet and see many NASCAR drivers, pit crews, and all behind the scenes personal that make it look easy. I have a new appreciation of all the hard work contributed to making a race possible.
The pit and behind the scenes was a memorable experience. When the cars are being pushed by crews (a long line of them) you hear "car crossing" and must be prepared to jump out of the way. When you are told its not unusual to spend $30,000 on tires alone you have an appreciation for the cars and what is entailed entirely.

I walk into the next phase of treatment with very minimal knowledge of  how surgery, recovery, reconstruction, timeline, and over all healing will be. I walk in with no fear and a heart full of trust and faith as God's healing in my treatments he will continue to do so.
I look forward to some knowledge and insight into my next chapter as its a step closer to healing and normalcy.

I fully anticipate waking up from surgery with NED (no cancer) and God speed in healing so I can move forward to the radiation treatments.

Please continue to keep myself and family in your prayers as it has carried me this far!


I have had many reach out and tell me I'm hard find and contact, as they have questions or wish to communicate with me.

Please leave a comment with your email address and I will be happy to reach out to you.

 Please know I feel great, fully believe my cancer is completely gone, am healing quickly from chemo, anticipating a quick recovery from surgery, a clear pathology report, minimal pain, and countless blessings!

All things are possible through Christ who strengths us~

God Bless

I will update after I have my surgery date.

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